WHY is it so bad?? who was gonna tell me 16 was just DREAD, my ocd has flared up worse than ever and i can’t go to therapy weekly anymore. im getting worse and i can’t do it. I just want to give up.
OCD as a teen is awful. To be honest I’m not sure how I survived, I still wake up every day surprised I’m living. I wasn’t supposed to *actually* make it to adulthood.
Damn I got ocd when I was 16. I thought the same thing, why me? I was only 16 and fearing every day for many hours. So much DREAD. Please dont give up. I know it's so fcking hard. So so hard. I promise there will be better days. It's not always going to be terrible I'm so sorry you feel this way. Hang in there ❤️🩹
Im early 30s and only recently diagnosed ocd. Honestly be grateful youre working with things now. My coping has always been masking and fooling everyone around me everything is fine or im lying about everything to cope and throw people off my tracks to have more alone time (all alone time). You can can do it and youll be better for it by my age than i am now. Be grateful. Do some box breathing. Spend some time doing what fills you up or with someone you always laugh with.
@aquasurf Thank you❤️
my ocd has also flared up really bad lately and it’s hard because I’m not able to go to therapy every week either so it feels very isolating :( but you’re not alone I know it’s hard when you don’t have an outlet like therapy as often, it feels like you’re bottling everything up. maybe try reminding yourself of “normal” times or times where you felt nice and let yourself know that you can get back to that and that this won’t last forever 🫶
@Summ3r_ This is so helpful thank you.
I’ve been dealing with a really bad flare up the last 2 weeks and i’ve been dealing with ocd on and off for years. I was finally feeling better today, So of course my ocd decided to bring up an old intrusive thought that was really upsetting and now i’m stuck on it again. The reason why I struggle so much to conquer my ocd is because I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids, the ones that mean everything to me. The intrusive thoughts range from mild to really disturbing. While I know deep down the intrusive thoughts aren’t true or me, the ocd makes it feel SO real and true which makes me feel like I HAVE to disprove the thoughts and with confidence but the ocd won’t let me. It also makes me question analyze and judge everything I do. It’s an endless cycle of pain and I just want to be a mom without ocd telling me i’m a horrible person all day every day. 😪
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
man these few weeks have been so hard. i’m in the process of getting diagnosed with ocd, im almost positive i have it because everything on here relates to me on an insane level. but im just so scared dude. these thoughts of me harming someone are so scary and im so scared im gonna eventually act on them and i know i never want to but its still so scary. like sometimes when i talk to my mom about it i think in the back of my head “you know you want to” when i dont, and it makes me think or gets me scared that i do. these thoughts literally just happened out of nowhere and it messes me up so bad my literal perspective on life in general is just messed up. like i view life as its more common to be a bad person and its rare/hard to be good. can someone please just pray for me or just wish me better days. i dont even like looking at myself anymore and im scared i give off creepy vibes to myself or others now, this sucks so much
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