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God loves you so incredibly much. He knows you have this condition and he loves you despite it. Religious OCD may try to convince u otherwise, but God himself sees how hard you try.

Hey there, I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I’ve struggled a lot with existential OCD, and while it’s not exactly the same as religious OCD, there is some overlap. Unfortunately, there won’t be an answer to your questions that will satisfy your OCD - it will always want more. I wish I knew more about Catholicism so that I could give you more specific advice, but hang in there. I know it feels like your world is shattering and that you won’t even shake these thoughts. I’ve been there and it’s awful - just know that it does get better regardless of whether or not you “figure it out.” It may take some time, but you’ll gradually start to notice these thoughts becoming less “sticky” and eventually they will no longer bother you. Be kind to yourself. One thing that really helped me (and I was in an awful place) was responding to the anxiety and panic feeling with “it’s okay for me to be anxious.” I don’t know why, but telling myself that over and over whenever I would begin to feel anxiety creeping up on me, which was just about all day, eventually had a profound effect on the way my body responded to these thoughts

This is very interesting because I had a similar experience. I was only picturing God the Father in my head while praying, but after learning more about the trinity, I realized I should have been picturing Jesus and the Holy Ghost as well. Similarly, I felt like I had been praying wrong my entire life. I confessed to my bishop sobbing expecting him to be mad at me. He wasn’t! He said that the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are different, but they testify of each other and are one in purpose. A prayer where you are picturing Jesus is still going to reach God the Father. The other way around is true. The scriptures say nothing about Jesus feeling neglected if you only are praying to the Father. They are one. When I say prayers and feel like I’m speaking to Christ, I don’t feel like that prayer “doesn’t count” anymore.

There is 1 God in 3 persons. God is the Creator, Jesus is our advocate. The Holy Spirit is out comforter, who Jesus mentioned being sent to us after his ascension. It's a complete Godhead, when you think about it and really can be no other way. It's awesome that you have so much interest and sensitivity to God. Keep learning, seeking and drawing closer to Him!!! And talk to Him as a father, but a friend. Abba means "daddy". :-)