- Date posted
- 27d
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i think i might be struggling with depression. can depression make ocd worse? because lately, my intrusive thoughts have become so intense that even trying to sit with them doesnāt help. i hate that i canāt even go one full day without giving in to a compulsion. the horrible, blasphemous thoughts are so overwhelming that i sometimes feel like giving up and just believing themānot because i actually want to, but because Iām so mentally and emotionally exhausted. what scares me most is that my feelings feel so twisted now⦠like iām starting to like or want these cruel thoughts. itās terrifying because i feel like iām becoming the kind of person I never wanted to beāa cruel person, even an enemy of God. and i donāt want that at all. i'm just scared iām changing into someone iām not.