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thank you so much for this. i'm really trying to figure out if depression is making my ocd worse because everything feels so intense. and i'm really sorry to hear what you've been through—i hope you're doing well now. by the way, i saw some of your posts, and one of them really relates to my situation right now. it’s the post where you mentioned your complex trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. i'm sorry to bring that up here—i just related so much because it's really similar to what i’m going through. i’m suffering from severe religious OCD that’s tied to other OCD subtypes like moral OCD and pure O, and also possibly depression. i just want to know—what did you do to get out of that situation? because i’m really having a hard time right now. i think i’m also in the middle of a mental health crisis. i've been having horrible brain fog, and i'm struggling to remember what happened just a few days ago—even what i ate for breakfast today. i just badly need help right now. i can’t seek therapy because my family is really struggling financially, and i don’t want to add to that. they don’t know about my mental struggle. i'm trying my best to hide it from them because the first time i opened up, they didn’t understand. they said i was just diagnosing myself from what i saw online. but i know my mom is concerned deep down. i'm 17 and can’t afford therapy or medication on my own. it doesn't help that i live in the province, not in the city, and it’s really far. i'm also afraid because OCD isn't well-known and understood in our country. i feel so hopeless, and i don’t want to live anymore. i’ve been thinking of ending my life because i feel so horrible. i hope you’ll help me by telling me what you did to get out of your situation. thank you so much. 💗

@izenap You’d be surprised by how many people go through nearly the same situation as you, so you’re not alone in this. Like me, what you’re going through is what I’m going through right now. Crazy isn’t it? So What keeps you going? What that thing that drives you to get up and keep living everyday? Hold on to that, even if it’s painful, because it’ll hurt even more if you let go. Treat yourself well, you deserve every ounce of love and care. Oh and I do have some useful advice as well that helped me, manage I guess, I’m still in this situation unfortunately, but ultimately imma be honest, saying something about how your feelings, even if it’s messy, at least someone would know. What helped was getting mentally prepared to talking about it, pre planning what to say, what they may say, from your own experience from your loved ones, and deciding who to tell. A mental health crisis is an important thing, and having difficulty living is even more important. Just know that it’s not your fault, you’re doing the best you can, and it’s okay to feel upset. I recommend bringing up how you’re feeling though, your family seems like they care a ton, and other loved ones also care for you as well. People will notice if you’re gone, and it’ll be really sad, if that is the case. Treat yourself with as much as kindness as possible, maybe eat a sweet treat, and you matter! I hope this helps. Good night and take care.

@Emilia<3 thank you so much for your kind words. i truly appreciate it. take care too 💗