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@@sophiaevidal I had an experience recently with my daughter that left me very anxious and confused. She wanted to cuddle, which usually makes me feel nervous, but I allowed it, thinking I could manage my discomfort by setting boundaries. As she lay across my arm, I became very aware of where my body was in relation to hers. I was especially anxious about the possibility of accidental or inappropriate contact, and in trying to avoid it, I ended up hyper-focusing on the position of my elbow. I noticed I was moving slightly in response to that anxiety—almost like a repeated checking behavior, which made me feel deeply uncomfortable afterward. What worries me most is that I repeated the movement multiple times after this. And this repetition felt intentional in the moment, but I can’t tell if it was anxiety-driven or something worse. I feel ashamed and afraid that this might reflect something harmful about me, even though I never wanted to hurt her and didn’t experience it as anything sexual. But I recall wanting to continue to touch her chest. I feel lost and disturbed by what happened and want to understand how to make sure I never cross any line, even unintentionally.

@Anony1314 Look I have had automatic reactions to thoughts that I feel really gulity about but they are unintentional because they are automatic but know these things happen sometimes and it is part of ocd symptoms they are impulses driven out of anxiety not harm.

@@sophiaevidal Hey friend!! But what's scaring me is I wanted to continue to touch her chest before I repeated that movement. Although I panicked after immediately

@Anony1314 But you never wanted harm so it is ok.

@sanshine I had an experience recently with my daughter that left me very anxious and confused. She wanted to cuddle, which usually makes me feel nervous, but I allowed it, thinking I could manage my discomfort by setting boundaries. As she lay across my arm, I became very aware of where my body was in relation to hers. I was especially anxious about the possibility of accidental or inappropriate contact, and in trying to avoid it, I ended up hyper-focusing on the position of my elbow. I noticed I was moving slightly in response to that anxiety—almost like a repeated checking behavior, which made me feel deeply uncomfortable afterward. What worries me most is that I repeated the movement multiple times after this. And this repetition felt intentional in the moment, but I can’t tell if it was anxiety-driven or something worse. I feel ashamed and afraid that this might reflect something harmful about me, even though I never wanted to hurt her and didn’t experience it as anything sexual. But I recall wanting to continue to touch her chest. I feel lost and disturbed by what happened and want to understand how to make sure I never cross any line, even unintentionally.

@Anony1314 Hello! I saw your original post and to me it sounds like it was a compulsion or checking or a way to prove to yourself that you have no bad intentions.

@sanshine Hey friend!! But what's scaring me is that I wanted to touch her chest before I repeated the movement.

@Anony1314 Well, it could be that u wanted to touch it to test yourself, and that the want wasn't because of some strange desire

@Anony1314 I remember with my nephew I touched the area between the diaper and his leg, partially because I didn't want him to hit a sharp corner on the table but also to test myself. Perhaps I shouldn't have tested, but it wasn't pit of a weird desire ykw?

@sanshine Could it been desired, but I didn't mean to harm? That it was like an impulse. I didn't mean to harm her but in the moment I was only thinking about my intentions not the bad thing about it or nothing.

@Anony1314 It could be, it's important to remember that sometimes humans just do strange things for no reason really. U didn't hurt her and u didn't have any gross desires. Sometimes people just do strange things.