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@doomed >3 Hi! What do you need help with?

@theycallmeemmy I ..dont know if you'll help..with this But this is really important.. I just had a moment of hocd spike .. I don't know..anything i just want to know if its my nautral orientation i kept it for whole day..pls help me?

@doomed >3 I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling 💔 However, I’m not sure how the community recommendations support advice, and what the overlap might be for reassurance seeking… I’m sure your therapist could shed some light on this, though. Do you have a session coming up? I don’t feel qualified to give you advice, but my heart does go out to you.

@theycallmeemmy I wish i could have a therapist I wish. I could have someone to help me get out of this I just want my old days back... I understand reassurance isn't right thing but i was looking for it tho, im calm now.. Im tired of all these things I have exams in five days i am in my bed Crying obessing over why i feel this and why i feel that way Every second of my life is torture I feel as if it's gods way to help me? I am done with this

@doomed >3 I’m sorry it’s so hard right now… Don’t give up! We can’t give reassurance, but we’re here to listen friend. What do you mean by I’m done with this?

@Kong Rong I meant that recently a thought has been eating me up..seriously its so awful.. And recently new thoughts are arising that indicate denial such as whaat if my family finds out in future im bi? I am even starting a future plan that if i find out im bi,I'll first be independent and then come out cause i know my parents aren't that welcoming .. These kinds of thoughts are eating me i am having such scripts and plans in my head Well im not actually bi..but i doubt it and i think I'll never know if i wont explore myself and expose myself enough to the stuff So i think this is the sign of being in denial cause people who supress their sexuality have these kinds of thoughts

@doomed >3 That’s really hard, and I can tell you’re in a lot of pain. Sorry it’s like this right now. It honestly sounds like ocd. You’re having anxiety with this feeling of pressure to figure something out. Your minds kind of centered and fixed on it. And the planning and scripts sounds like compulsions. And I get it bc the thoughts are scary. You said above you wish you could have a therapist. How come you can’t?

@Kong Rong Im just now so numb.. I use this numbness to work Other wise im in my bed on my phone surfing through internet and reddit and do everything to get reaassured i know this is something thaat is keeping the cycle alive.. I am resisting But..sometimes i just cant my life feels as if its falling apart and i have..nothing to lose