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Moral / Responsibility OCD
I’ve been getting through my POCD fears but now I’m having intense moral / responsibility OCD that is severely affecting my mental health to the point where I’m having immense trouble functioning at work. Mine stems from the fact that I feel the need to seek out weird stuff I remember seeing on the internet and reporting it. This is especially prevalent with porn that I find suspicious online and it causes me to make reports to the cybertip line a lot. My mind is just in constant alert mode due to my sexual abuse as a child and other factors I’ve experienced Now my OCD is latching onto a super hazy memory of when a co-worker was telling me about this guy in his town he knew who he told me everyone suspected he was involved in a hit and run that had occurred. I barely remember the conversation but I remember him telling me that somehow his old vehicle went to someone or was transferred over to some guy and when he looked at the engine there was what he assumed was dried blood inside it or something like that. I remember the conversation started because we were talking about people who we knew were probably guilty that we had heard stories of or knew of but there was never appropriate evidence found My OCD has latched onto the idea that my co worker told me this information which police may or may not have known of or heard of. I don’t remember if he told me how he knew of this story or who he heard it from or if the police knew about it or anything like that. It happened a year ago during a shift at work in a McDonald’s and it’s so hazy that I can’t even remember the specifics of anything. I know the idea that I was given secret information that the police didn’t know about during a shift at McDonald’s is incredibly unlikely. But the constant “what if?” just spirals into my brain constantly and makes me develop the feeling like I HAVE to reach out to someone about it, even though I know there’s nothing for them to investigate and my co-worker was basically telling me gossip. I know I’m really overthinking the memory and my mind is putting false memories in my brain, but I wanted to ask what you guys tell yourselves to get rid of the intrusive thoughts or the compulsions? I try to tell myself that it’s “just my OCD” but that rarely ever works.