I’m such a loser it actually hurts

Going through the exact same thing but I'm 23

Hey gio, I have this constant feeling of having to grow up and that I’m behind in life too. That’s the problem with ocd is it tells us we’re constantly behind. I like to think of adulthood like this, your 18, you’ve just now became an adult which means your basically a newborn baby. I’m 20 years old which means I’m really only 2 ive just started walking on my own😆 Thinking about “growing up and doing adult things” makes me feel sorrowful so I refuse to grow up. I still haven’t found my people yet and it gets lonely. Do you have a local library that holds events? My local library has free yoga, meditation, crafts, and more and it is so fun. I went through that a lot and am still going through that dream like state, my psychiatrist told me the ocd and anxiety can produce that feeling, it’s a way for your mind to protect itself. Please be easy on yourself. Everytime I talk to older adults they tell me it’s hard to realize right now but this part of our life is so important for individuality and self exploration so do not feel behind. I’m proud of you for getting up everyday and going to therapy and pushing through. Give yourself a pat on back. Thank you for sharing gio :)

You're going through one of the most challenging periods of your life, during one of the weirdest times to be alive in history. I hope you give yourself some grace and patience, because nobody is expecting you to have it all figured out when you are still a teenager, let only when you are in your 20's. I got my license late too, the idea of driving can be intimidating for anyone. The rest of it is just what this part of life feels like.

I understand you on a visceral level, it is crucial that you learn to love yourself including the parts of you that you wish you didn’t have, one thing i did that helped me was practicing positive affirmations in the mirror, i would stare at my reflection and repeat positive things that at first didn’t feel true, then as i progressed i would slowly become more enthusiastic and lively until i felt good, and i would perform these every morning until i felt great, they helped me and brought me a long way, always treat yourself with love and happiness.