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How to manage religious OCD?
i suffer from religious ocd and it's been really bad recently. i don't consider myself religious but i still have religious OCD so things get complicated. i was raised in a christian household, but idk if id consider myself fully christian, i just believe in the existence of religion and life after death in general. anyway, i get very triggered every time i hear any word that has to do with religion. i always feel like i have to quickly pray or else something bad will happen or ill accidentally summon a demon or something. just writing this is making me nervous and i lowkey just prayed😭😭. and by pray i literally mean just a quick "in jesus name i pray, amen." or a "i claim no negative energy, amen." i also feel the urge to pray anytime i have something at stake, like a concert or a test, and i'll distress myself over these events and convince myself ill fail if i don't pray and anger god. and like i said, im not even sure im christian so this seems silly, i know! but i literally pray in my head hundreds of times a day and it's really frustrating and time consuming. also, i never feel like the prayer is "enough", so sometimes ill get caught in prayer loops where i just keep reciting the same thing in my head until i feel satisfied or get distracted. one time, i even convinced myself my stuffed animal was possessed by a demon and had a panic attack (i was aware it was irrational but you know how OCD is). i really need help because simple words trigger my OCD now and i can't enjoy things i used to, like horror movies, anymore. it's taking too much time out of my day and too much energy out of me. simple tasks are becoming distressing. does anyone have advice or a similar experience?