Feel like I’m going crazy

I’ve been struggling lately with my ocd because I haven’t been taking my pills right, mostly because I have an extreme fear of choking and it makes taking my pills really hard. I’m going to try to do better at taking my pills but this isn’t the point of this post. My newest ocd obsession is about demons, but I’ve had religious ocd my whole life. My ocd is mostly centered around the idea that if I don’t do something the right way, a demon or God or some other powerful entity will punish me. It’s always been that way, but it’s gotten worse lately. Now I’m afraid a demon’s going to possess me or manipulate my mind, and if I don’t remember doing something exactly, my mind is like “a demon did it for you so now it’s going to take something from you” (this last thing has been part of my ocd for a long time too). My mind has also latched onto a demonic character from a show, and it’s become the face of the demon my ocd is centered around. They have a symbol and I keep thinking I see it behind my eyes or on shows or in real life, and when I see something like it my mind is like “this is proof the demon is watching you.” I know the character isn’t real and it’s all in my head, but I’m afraid I’m going crazy. Like what if I believe I’m possessed and hurt someone? I don’t want to hurt anyone and I KNOW this character isn’t real, but I do believe in demons. I think God would protect me from demons, but the doubt keeps messing with me. This is really annoying and I need some advice, or at least reassurance I’m not alone in demonic/religious themed ocd.

jenniferb21

Date posted: Yesterday

I've had random thoughts like what if somethings in back of me or if somethings consuming me but honestly being close to God has really helped me it doesn't;t last long before I'm like I have what they fear, the Holy Spirit. God comes through for his children let that stick with you, even if you did, there is good which is God and if you cry out he will deliver you from evil. Demons tremble in the presence of Jesus. Use that to your advantage with your irrational fears accept these things are real but know that in God you have the weapon

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

Can you get the pills in liquid form?

lugnuts

Date posted: Yesterday

Fear/ doubt is not of God. I would read a book called Discernment of the Spirits by Ignatius. Remember God made all things good we and that includes us. Our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit he is our moral compass trust in him that dwells within us. Demons lie they sow seeds of doubt ignore them.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

I had a huge fear of getting possessed when I was growing up and I didn’t realize it was ocd until I was actually diagnosed. I couldn’t even have movies about exorcisms in the house or I would freak out. And I always needed a nightlight. I still get the thoughts even now as an adult, especially at night when trying to sleep. So I completely understand what you are going through. My ocd has definitely shifted into a fear of going crazy and potentially hurting someone. It’s all so awful. I’m sorry you’re going through this. Take it one day at a time 🫶🏻

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