I'm sad and not sure if it's valid to be upset

Hey so, idk if this is ocd related or no but I just need support and help. I've been talking to a guy for like 2 or 3 weeks, he said he likes me a week in and we started flirting and basically almost getting official, planning valentine date and stuff. Then out of nowhere he says his ptsd got bad, we decided to take a break, my anxiety and ocd got bad thinking about hid past. Basically a lot happened and it was bit overwhelming. I crashed down, cried and well almost a month passed basically no talking. I just accepted we ain't a match and texted him to clear things and say I appreciate him but we just don't match. He just kinda said oki thanks, hope you take care and you can still text me as a friend with smiley faces. Now this kinda relieved me knowing he ain't hurt but also made me upset he didn't seem to care ad much as I did. I was crying almost every night because well I did genuinely really really like him (I'm demi, I don't date really and when I like someone I LOVE them). So I'm upset for once again having bigger emotions than someone and not seeming as important in someone's life, someone I thought loved me and told me they loved me like crazy couple weeks ago and how they want me in their life. And now he just saying oki bye like nothing. Yet I feel bad for feeling upset because idk if its valid? I always struggled understanding what emotions are appropriate when and I was always told I'm overreacting so now that I'm grown I don't trust myself and idk what I'd valid to feel rn. I'm kinda lost and sad and mad at him yet also at me for trusting someone once again. This kinda was my final blow and now even tho I have people who like me and even conffesed but I feel disgusted by a thought of trusting or flirting with anyone again or being close to them. I'm so hurt by everything. There's a whole other story where I got rejected and I'm still friends with him and that whole stuff still hurts too especially with him still constantly bringing up his ex yet nit getting much support from him. Idk I'm just so lost and unhappy with me falling for people so fast and hard while they don't seem to care. I want love where I feel safe and treasured but at the same time I wanna stay away from it so I'm just lonely and sad :[ Sorry if it was a mess

happyoh

Date posted: Yesterday

I relate to always being the one who cares more. You didn’t text him for one month, then texted him saying you’re not a match? Just clarifying. It is possible the length of no talking made him think you also dont care , and then when you did message you said you aren’t a match. If you like him, try to be straightforward. I’m sorry if this isn’t helpful

Pyxiegyrl

Date posted: Yesterday

I agree maybe it felt bigger but they couldn’t put their feelings behind it because you also seemed dismissive of the relationship. Not either of your intentions. I would speak honestly and openly about it. Maybe it’s a huge misunderstanding

ocdbingus

Date posted: 23h

Aight so for clarifications: He was the one to ask for a break because he wasn't sure if he wanted to continue after saying he loves me to the moon and back like hours before so I agreed to give him space because he said texting kinda makes both of us sad and he's busy and needs time. We texted few times mostly to check in if we ok. Yes I like him but I don't think I can be with him no more because: after showing me in love one day he just decided he ain't sure no more if he's ready, his past is much bigger which triggers my ocd which triggers his ptsd, plus he doesn't seem to actually be as invested before we met he said he went to bars every weekend trying to find dates and seems to dare easily which just kinda makes me feel like another lil step in his life. I know I'm probably bit in over my head and I'm sure he meant when he said he liked me and maybe he cares but I don't wanna text him no more to clarify anything and stir stuff yet I feel sad and upset and don't know how to manage that. Hope this makes it clearer

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