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I’ve said many many things out of confusion over the past 5 years of my relationship (with ROCD) and even my boyfriend knows I was obviously panicking and not thinking clearly. You’re not “emotionally abusive” for having compulsions. It’s okay to feel bad for the things you’ve said, but you have to give yourself credit for the hell you go through. My boyfriend and I went through the same thing and had to learn that I’m not being emotionally abusive, I’m just acting on obsessions. You. Aren’t. A. Bad. Person. And if I had to guess from the compassion in your post, you’re extremely kind hearted. growth is possible and were in this together!!
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Has anyone had troubles in a relationship on an antidepressant??
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- 5y ago
Are you getting any support? Zoloft on it's own may not be enough. Experienced therapist is likely to be needed too.
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Emotional abuse can occur without malicious intent. For example, neglect is a form of emotional abuse a caretaker of mine growing up suffered from depression and was not always emotionally present which was neglect. Does that make her a bad person? Fuck no. You are not a bad person. Mental illness often does effect those around us negatively but it does not make us bad people. If you are not trying to harm someone you are not a bad person. You are not your mental illness even though it can be overpowering and feel like you. I have been dumped for my rocd compulsions and I am so sorry you are going through this. I understand the guilt but you have to remember that you are not a bad person.
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Thank you so much I really appreciate the support
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