so frustrated

i’m so frustrated because i haven’t been hanging out with anyone or going out since i’ve turned 21 (last year) because of my ocd. i’m so scared of getting sick that it makes me cancel on plans, miss out on family or friend’s events, and finally, this weekend, i faced my fears and went to a club, and had a sleepover with my friends. just to find out the next day (today) one of my friends we were hanging out with was sick, and nobody told me. all of my friends know i have horrible contamination ocd to a point where it’s a joke in my friend group, and yet, nobody told me. i’m panicking and freaking out because i know im gonna start feeling sick anytime soon, and it feels like im having a hundred thoughts a minute. am i valid for being frustrated?

Mrcino 1408

Date posted: Yesterday

Are you able to Hold on this thought and just let it be For one full day And you will see how Intensity will fall of Then you can rationally see and decide.

armorheart

Date posted: Yesterday

@Mrcino 1408 that’s what i’m trying to do, i haven’t said anything and don’t plan to. right now im just trying to distract myself and clean my house but im compulsively thinking about it so bad :(

armorheart

Date posted: Yesterday

@Mrcino 1408 thank you for responding :)

bumblebells

Date posted: Yesterday

I think it’s valid to be upset about your friend not telling you about someone being sick. I also think it’s very possible that they didn’t tell you because they didn’t want to cause you to panic. It’s hard for someone without OCD to know the best way to handle stuff like this. Maybe try expressing that you would rather know and that you’re a lot more likely to go out with them in the future if they inform you about things like this?

armorheart

Date posted: Yesterday

@bumblebells yeah for sure. it’s just annoying cause my best friend also has ocd but she doesn’t have contamination ocd like i do, but she sees how much i struggle, i think that’s why im so frustrated. i’m gonna tell her again that respectfully i cannot hang out if anyone is sick. thank u for responding :)

Livilou

Date posted: Yesterday

This is all so valid. I get really scared when someone is sick (I get probably get contamination OCD from my Dad but he doesn’t acknowledge that he has it) and it can be so all consuming. Also sort of embarrassing. I’m always asking if the food is okay to eat and when it’s going out of date. Sometimes I have to ask as a compulsion and people look at me like I’m crazy. You are not alone. Hope you’re okay!

armorheart

Date posted: Yesterday

@Livilou it is embarrassing :( i totally feel that, and i also ask a bunch of questions and it’s embarrassing because people act so annoyed when i ask. you’re not alone either in that, thank you sm :)

Livilou

Date posted: Yesterday

@armorheart The most person I ask is my mum and although the only thing she knows about OCD is what I tell her, she is supportive and understands. But when a friend or other relative gives me food, I either have to check the packaging or ask (which obviously comes across as really rude lol) and they look at me like I’m insane and sometimes ask. This isn’t even the worst part of OCD I struggle with, but it probably the most obvious one because I actually have to voice my compulsions. It is so draining but the more awareness is spread and the more we talk about it, the better!

armorheart

Date posted: Yesterday

@Livilou i’m sorry to hear that, i know what it’s like to HAVE to do your compulsions even if you know it’ll make you look weird or rude. it sucks having to deal with this voice in our heads that makes us question everything :( my mom is so mean when it comes to my ocd and so are my friends. it just sucks because people don’t understand ocd, and think we are just organized or something.

Livilou

Date posted: Yesterday

@armorheart No literally it needs so much more awareness. I’m lucky my mum is so supportive, but weirdly enough my step mum is a mental health nurse, and she’ll give me advice sometimes, but she’s actually not that great and it’s almost like she doesn’t understand. She’ll go “Liv, your thoughts don’t make sense, stop.” And it’s like, I know that but it still affects me. I hate how it can be so all consuming but it’s so downplayed. Intrusive thoughts really get to me

armorheart

Date posted: 23h

@Livilou ugh i’m sorry that’s frustrating. i wish they can step into our brains for 5 mins and understand that we know most of it doesn’t make sense but we can’t control it 😭 and same my intrusive thoughts are horrible. it’s so hard to explain to people who don’t have it :(

Livilou

Date posted: 4h

@armorheart Yes I wish people would understand OCD and rational and logic doesn’t go in the same sentence

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