Omg

18+ only Oh my god i actually feel horrible over this, it's really fucking me up rn, I feel so sick. Okay so I think this was when I was 18, but when I was scrolling around on cornhub I saw the thumbnail of this corn vid and I didnt see the face of the woman just her back, and I didnt read the title at all and I pleasured myself to the video and then after a while I noticed the title said "stvd3nt" and I panicked and clicked off super quickly. Now i am so scared that what if it was legit and I WATCHED it and touched myself to it even tho i didn't notice at all at first and I feel so disgusting and guilty even tho the woman looked like an adult. I hate pornhub so much for allowing such gross content to be normalized. I'm so scared I did something horrible and iredeemable even tho it was never my intention and never will be to search for stuff like that. Pls idk if my ocd is distorting this memory, it feels super real and im so scared, I avoid corn altogether now bc of this event. I'm so scared.

oklol

Date posted: 17h

It’s good that you don’t go on porn sights anymore! It’s unrealistic in so many aspects and as unfortunate as it is industries like that profit by using weird fetishes such as the video you described. I’m going to try and word this the best way possible without reassurance - reassurance feels good and may calm you down, however in the long run it won’t be beneficial. HOWEVER it could be OCD distorting your memory, it might not be. Regardless of if it may or may not be ocd distorting that memory - you didn’t intentionally watch it knowing what the video was trying to portray or with real context. Which hopefully that can give you some more peace of mind, but ultimately the best advice I can give you is to sit with that anxiety. Don’t question it, don’t try to figure it out, let the thoughts and the anxiety go just as quickly as it came. OCD is a liar, you got this, keep pushing

Oh Dear

Date posted: 17h

something similar happened to me. When I was on twitter a while ago, there was this sexual video with 18+ content and I watched it. I came across the same video on another twitter page but this time it was labeled as teen but I didn’t think much of it because I know that people use tags like “teen” and “school girl” to appeal to certain people, which I never purposefully search up but when my OCD symptoms started increasing to where it is now there was a point where I latched onto that memory and couldn’t stop thinking if the girl in the video was underage or not or if I ever watched any other videos unknowingly like that. I feel so bad, but I genuinely never even considered the fact that twitter doesn’t regulate and monitor the sexual content that they allow on their platform. I was introduced to it during covid when I was 16 and people on tik tok would make videos about watching twitter corn and even sharing the different accounts that they liked.

ocd0372

Date posted: 17h

Yeah me neither, I'm just terrified, i do remember watching the same video tho in the past a couple of times and I'm pretty sure the title was never that. I feel like the creator changed it to fit the taboo trend for more clicks, i genuinely do not remember that video being titled that, but after seeing the title I kniw longer see that vid. Its so disgusting i hate this. More memory's keep coming back to me and im scared that means something abt me. I genuinely didn't think much abt it at the time either until now

Theeckmas

Date posted: 16h

You didn’t do anything wrong. You thought they were an adult. That is the website’s fault. You’re fine. Breathe.

ocd0372

Date posted: 19h

Im actually having an anxiety attack over this, i genuinely didn't know but I feel like it doesn't matter. I'm freaking out

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