Today sucks.

18+ only OCD keeps infantilising grown women especially when they posting somewhat suggestive things I guess? (Could just be my OCD just assuming that but I don't know) and I hate it so much, I also saw someone I had to report, they didn't post anything I don't think but I just went to their account to report them because their name was a dogwhistle and the person my OCD infantilised despite them being 21 was really triggering and then when I was reporting the "person" I saw the link to someone I cleared as safe and the checking compulsion popped into my head again, I didn't do it but I'm having a groinal and everything. I then checked the first person's (Not the person I reported) following and they turned out to follow some people I find immoral so I reported them too but one person was just normal and posted slightly suggestive photos of themselves in like gym shorts and bikinis but I didn't know their age so OCD freaked out and said all these things about me for no reason. I needed to do the checking compulsion to something safe but then I saw two people I thought were safe uploaded new videos doing things I found immoral, I found someone safe but kept itching and stretching my privates when looking for something safe and I don't know why but I'm scared it's a s*xual thing, I was doing the stretching thing when I had a full on groinal and sometimes when I was ya knowing but I was itching compulsively before then and I didn't feel anything when stretching, I just have a medical thing down there and doing that helps, maybe it's a subconcious test to see if it is a s*xual thing but I've done it before under different contexts like just on the toilet and not really paying attention to my phone so I'm scared/worried I could've done it at an inappropriate time without realising. Also this is probably a dumb aside but I don't believe I feel attraction, I just use checking compulsions to "disprove" intrusive thoughts and destress. Before the compulsion I reported a bunch of people either being really disgusting about someone who posted a selfie or following people I've reported before or posting videos of other people possibly without them knowing and I also thought someone was safe and was about to find something of there's to complete the compulsion before one of their titles had the word "mommy" in it which I really hate but I feel bad because I already started the compulsion before finding that out and stopping. And I keep looking at people inappropriately, no matter who it is and I despise it more than anything. And I just learnt that Euphoria which I watched like 2 episodes of ages ago had a scene cut from the first episode because it was illegal and I'm terrified I saw it and didn't realise and I feel like I have to report it just in case but obviously don't want to see it.