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Well it always depends but my depression for example is gone completely my ocd is better an only skyrockets when I am stressed but I am still in treatment and I used to have social anxiety disorder and this is gone completely too ,so there is hope but try to think and hope in small steps f.e I want to cut out this compulsion to be able to do this thing I enjoy and let it happen naturally trough treatment
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oh okay. i wish i was normal and never had none of this going on
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Depends on the person, when I've been well it's been at a manageable level so it doesnt need to be gone completely in my opinion
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cause its doesn’t really be all that bad unless im around a bad environment(family) which that what im currently around when i leave from them i feel a big relief and good , they get mad if nobody doesnt want to be around them , they too toxic and evil im 25 going on 26 i feel like im being control demanded and stuck sometimes i cant even go no where to enjoy myself cause they want me to sit in the house all day and do everything in the house while there’s other people in the same house can help out but they always depending on me and if i give them the answer” no” they get very mad at me and start confusing making up to stuff to start drama.. i miss a few jobs opportunities i had an orientation i couldnt even go to that and my doctor appointments like checkups, and from being sick and even to talk to my counselor its like they trying to stop me from reaching out for help and taking care of my health they get mad at that to they be saying that im not sick or depressed and that if i wanted to kill myself i would have been did it they said that i dont have no mental illness they laugh at me when i tell them im feeling weak and under distress i lost my father they made lies of him after he pass away and i didnt have no support from them sometimes they make fun of me calling me slow and broke and never apologize but always trying to give me money after something bad happen like to try to keep me from reporting them. i was abuse and torture by my aunte when i was a child, sometimes i wake out my sleep shaking and couldnt barely breathe from bad dreams about me gettin abuse and fuss at and whats currently going on now and i end up using the bathroom in my clothes and i woke up one morning i dont even remember how did i get in my greatgrandma room but i was just standing and everything disappeared and appeared back i went to the emergency room and they said they cant seem to find whats wrong ..i just want to move far away from them but i dont think they will let me :”-(
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@Takeya Beard I'm so so so sorry to hear what you've suffered. You deserve to live a happy and fulfilled life. Things will get better. Therapy will help you.
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@Daffodil i hope so cause this been goin on for a long time and thank you
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I'm honestly not sure. My psychiatrist told me that I won't have to battle it so fiercely and that some of my conditions might go away completely once I find the right combination of medications and therapy. I was diagnosed with ADHD, OCD and BPD. Im not sure if some being untreated led to others forming which is why he is not sure what will stick around and what will go away. It's honestly been a lot to handle and I've felt like an alien. But know that whether your symptoms fade or go away completely, you can get better if you take the step to seek help. It will be difficult to get through but worth it in the end :)
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i be trying to get the help i need but i feel afriad cause of my family always getting mad when im depressed and feeling like i want to end my life cause of them i dont want to be around them anymore they dont care about me or support and i feel like i will not be able to distant self from them.. i talk to my counselor about it before and one of the nurses thats works there with her , was saying that they was going to report it if it keeps going on and it is.and i just kept thinking worrying about if i tell them again my family might try to stop them from reporting and get away with it and ima have to deal with them for the rest of my life :”(
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Heres what I know, i had harm ocd. I healed but its not like there was no obsessiveness in me. I was the same me, just lost the fear of that thing in particular. So I am still more anxious than others, prone to depression. I just wasnt suffering evety day like I had. I felt very normal if thats a thing. But since I have these tendencies I did relapse. Not into the same form.. now I have something else I am fighting. It had been 10 good years though.
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im not sure what kind of OCD i have i went to the emergency room the beginning of the year around january 12 i went there to get help cause i wanted to end my life cause of family they not supportive or caring and are very evil people. as a counselor came in she told me she doesnt feel safe of me going back home to them after i told her everything what happen cause thats how evil my family is but she started asking me more questions like about my self and i told her that i hate a messy dirty place, room, bathroom, kitchen and etc. and i hate when people move my stuff out of place where i have everything neat and organized including my clothing, shoes. i like to stay in the bathroom a little longer when showering making sure i clean myself good and flossing and brushing my teeth because i hate when food get stuck between my teeth and stains on them thats why i barely eat i drink smoothies, protein shakes and juices like plain crandberry juice with no sugar or cocktail, and water and if i do eat, it have to be some type of food that dont get stuck too much in my teeth like grits , spaghetti, afredo, and then i turn around floss and brush my teeth and dont eat for days/sometimes weeks and they get at me for that and the counselor explain everything to my mom about me having OCD , she didnt seem like she wasnt trying to hear it , my mom got mad at me and start making faces and making fun of me to even when i dont realize my mouth be moving around twitching until she say something and sometimes my baby brother and other people in the house finds it funny of me repeating folding my rag after i dry off my face and even when im brushing my teeth if i get toothpaste around my mouth and washing my hands and cutting my phone screen on and off and switching to different apps and sometimes i dont be remembering doing all of that
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Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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Hi everyone, I’m Andrea and I am a member of the Intake Team here at NOCD. In junior high, I was known as the “aneurysm girl” because I was convinced any small headache meant I was dying. At just 12 years old, I read something that triggered my OCD, and from that moment on, my brain latched onto catastrophic health fears. Any strange sensation in my body felt like proof that something was seriously wrong. I constantly sought reassurance, avoided being alone, and felt trapped in an endless cycle of fear. Over time, my OCD shifted themes, but health anxiety was always there, lurking in the background. I turned to drinking to numb my mind, trying to escape the fear that never let up. Then, in 2016, everything spiraled. I was sitting at work, feeling completely fine, when suddenly my vision felt strange—something was “off.” My mind convinced me I was having a stroke. I called an ambulance, launching myself into one of the darkest periods of my life. I visited doctors multiple times a week, terrified I was dying, yet every test came back normal. The fear never loosened its grip. For years, I cycled in and out of therapy, desperately trying to find answers, but no one recognized what was really happening. I was always told I had anxiety or depression, but OCD was never mentioned. I was suicidal, believing I would never escape the torment of my mind. It wasn’t until 2022—after years of struggling, hitting rock bottom, and finally seeking specialized OCD treatment—that I got the right diagnosis. ERP therapy at NOCD was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it saved my life. Today, I’m 34, sober, and living a life I never thought was possible. Do I still have hard days? Absolutely. But I am no longer a prisoner to my fears. The thoughts still come, but they don’t control me anymore. They don’t dictate my every move. Life isn’t perfect, but it no longer knocks me off my feet. If you’re struggling with health OCD or somatic OCD, I see you. I know how terrifying and isolating it can be. But I also know that it can get better. If you have any questions about health & somatic OCD, ERP, and breaking the OCD cycle, I’d love to tell you what I’ve learned first hand. Drop your questions below, and I’ll answer all of them!
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