- Date posted
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Things I'm really worried about
18+ only I keep having groinals after seeing things I feel like I have to report (Like a minute or so after), for example, someone was calling out One Piece's massive problem with s*xualising characters that shouldn't be s*xualised and they posted an example but it was really disturbing and borderline really bad from what I saw for a split second before reporting it because even though they meant well, I felt their point could've been made without having the image there. Sometimes, I'll be on the toilet and scrolling on my phone, sometimes looking for something safe, sometimes just browsing social media, and I'll be itching or have my hand near my privates or be stretching my f*reskin because it gets tight and it helps with it and I'll see something normal like a meme or something with a kid and like quickly whip my hand away even though I wasn't do anything wrong and OCD has twisted this into me doing something horrible and sometimes this happens during a checking compulsion looking for something safe (Again nothing bad obviously) and I'd freak out and it'd just reinforce the compulsion. And sometimes if I've made sure someone is safe, my hand will start the m*sturbation/checking compulsion without me wanting to and doesn't stop when I want it to, it's never happened with anything bad but things I'm personally against (step-fantasy stuff or titles having the word teen 🤮🤮🤮 sidenote but it's insane that's allowed) would be overlayed on the screen or just people I haven't/hadn't cleared due to a bug that was just permanent when you exited full screen. Sometimes I'll randomly do the thing of stretching my f*reskin involuntarily when doing the ya know compulsion even though it's not a s*xual thing and OCD is messing with me. Maybe it's a compulsion but I don't know why, it doesn't alliviate any anxiety or anything I also have to repeat if I accidentally brush my privates or any weird body things. I clench my toes pretty often and sometimes it tenses my privates too. Or constantly looking at people inappropriately without wanting to like someone was rightfully calling out Lolita and Lolita aesthetic and someone posted examples (Nothing bad) but I saw that one of them had like the Tumblr caption/tags and needed to read them and then accidentally looked at them inappropriately and I hate it so much. Or just seeing entirely normal ads with kids and freaking out about them and it sucks. One thing that popped into my head just now was that I keep learning just how evil people I thought were trustworthy were, I remember a lot of people s*xualising the characters from Resident Evil Village, especially the tall lady and her daughters and I got reminded of this seeing someone play resident evil and now I'm terrified that they shouldn't have been s*xualised and I unknowingly did something wrong, the consensus seems to be the daughters are 19-23 but I'm scared that's not true because some random website said otherwise although they've got a lot of things wrong and mentioned concept art that doesn't exist so I don't think they're trustworthy but I think I thought the characters were adults at the time and now I'm scared that I was wrong even though they look like adults but what if I was wrong? (This wasn't recent, I'm freaking out something that happened a while ago, as with most of this stuff it's just popping back into my head now) Does anyone have similar experiences?