bug infestation ocd vent (need advice)

my apartment is currently infested with bed bugs and the fumigation date is in 2 days. i'm so stressed about it! i haven't done any of the main prep work yet (vacuuming, laundering everything. cleaning my shelves. moving furniture around. etc.) and with my proper vacuum coming tomorrow i have no more excuses to keep putting it off, and it's stressing me out horrendously. for reference, i found one bug a month ago, had an inspection which turned up nothing, & assumed it was a nomad who hadn't made a nest yet. cut to last week, i have a second inspection because a neighbor found some bugs, still empty. the next day i find two!!! bugs crawling around my bed!!! based on the number of bites i've been waking up with each day it's a very minor infestation still, probably 10-20 bugs total. but i keep thinking about how every single day waiting that number keeps going up and up and up. it's making me sick to my stomach. i've been sleeping in my (infested) bed every night despite my horrendous anxiety about it (as much as it sucks i don't want to risk moving them into a second room!) and with two nights left of having to do that until my hotel appointment for the fumigation... i'm seriously at my limit with it. i cannot do it anymore i cannot do another day. all i want to do is cry and punch my walls and move out of this place. i'm so tired of pushing down my repulsion and having to constantly check myself for bugs. i've been circling every bite and counting them every hour and it's so exhausting. i barely have the energy to do a single load of laundry the stress is exhausting me so badly. i don't know what to do about it for these next couple days & the couple weeks after that before the second treatment. i'm dreading sleeping tonight and i'm dreading waking up tomorrow and having to do All. Of. The. Cleaning. i don't know what i'm going to do if i do find a nest (i mean . steam it and vacuum it but i really don't know if i can handle seeing it) i don't know. i'm just so tired of being stuck in this brain. i'm so envious of people who can live through any sort of bug infestation and it only be an inconvenience and not a genuine lifeshattering event. if anyone else with contamination ocd /severe bug phobia has been through this, please share your story because i'm struggling to imagine a version of myself who got through this. or if anyone has some general coping strategies. i'm desperate at this point