Explicit things and compulsions

18+ only I was on reddit looking for something safe to the m*sturbation to but everyone kept breaking my rules and being in disgusting subreddits and I got worried about someone's account that was a year old and said they were 18 so I reported it (Didn't see anything) and then I got really scared about someone's body on redgifs and reported them to be safe and had to check their tos and got worried the site wasn't doing enough so reported the site to ofcom. At one point when I was looking at someone's instagram, I pressed back and it sent me to the home page and I saw a kid in something to do with Palestine, obviously it wasn't anything bad, it was entirely normal but it was still triggering and I had to wait 3 minutes before continuing to look for someone safe. OCD is really messing with me and saying I saw really bad things without realising and that I did nothing when I know it's not true. One person I was suspicious wasn't safe and checked their account to confirm my suspicions turned out to immediately not be safe and I reported them even though they weren't doing anything bad, just broke everyone of my rules and I got worried they were infantilising themselves. I finally got to someone I thought was safe, they weren't in any weird subreddits, they had multiple sites that require a verified age so I thought they were safe and did the compulsion but OCD is trying to tell me otherwise and I'm worried, they used the same site that's like embedded into reddit that I was worried about earlier and of course, I wasn't going to check their account there because I didn't want to go back to the site but now I'm scared they broke my rules too and put like "teen" in their tags or something despite looking like they were their late 30's I just want to be normal, I don't feel attraction, it's always just OCD messing with me and I have to shift it to something safe.

CatGee

Date posted: 9h

I’m sorry this happened to you, sounds really stressful. I understand wanting to feel normal. To not have this issue and live life with more ease.

Burnsey

Date posted: 6h

I’ve also worried about accounts or things I’ve seen on various sites or platforms, even Reddit. Thing is, I’d be worried that even if a user posted images that I couldn’t see because they were blurred that somehow I would be in trouble if those images turned out to be something illegal. I have nothing concrete to base this on, just a theme that recurs for me. But you know, Reddit does hash matching (before something goes live or immediately thereafter); they use automated tools, and they have human moderators and review teams for certain flagged items. At least, that’s what I found after looking into it. That gave me comfort because a big platform like that should be doing the most they can to prevent such things, and it sounded like they were really putting in effort. I think those measures should be required. Anyways, you’re not alone in this theme. I’ve never to my knowledge even seen anything that I know of was that type of material, but I still will struggle with the thoughts at times. I’ve certainly never tried to find anything of the sort, but my mind still attacks the unknowns. I have even worried about well-known movies, like Dirty Harry, and been scared if there was someone in a scene that was partially nude and later turned out to have been 17 or something that I’d somehow be in trouble. And this is a movie that is like a classic, like available on main streaming services like Prime. Doesn’t matter sometimes to OCD, though. It attacks unknowns. Suffice it to say, I’ve always felt better avoiding any adult material, not just because of this OCD-fueled fear but because it’s just not the right thing to have in your life. Be strong, resist, pray. Seek the Lord and read His Word. Helps me every time. And I think if you’re having these thoughts, similar to me, it probably means that that type of material is not something you’re seeking; it’s something you’d be repulsed by - just like me. I think there’s some internal comfort in that.

Ilovequilted...

Date posted: 56m

Try to not use any type of p*rn for masturbation. ESPECIALLY REDDIT OR TWITTER. It’s just not healthy for our brains. There’s endless amounts of studies on this. Our brain adapts to the quick dopamine it gives and eventually your body-to-mind connection gets desensitized and forces you to watch more “kinkier” subjects that can even lead to gore and pedophilia. It also makes you addicted. Not to mention it feeds our patriarchy. It is an addiction that is EXTREMELY unsafe for women in society. And extremely detrimental to men’s psyche. Use your good ol imagination like we did before we had technology. This way you make up the rules. EX: “the person in this story I’m imagining is above the age of 18 and consents to being intimate with me”. Even if your brain comes up with intrusive thoughts, it doesn’t matter because you already set up the rules. The person is above 18 and consents. Those rules cannot be broken even if an intrusive thought pops up. You can get real creative with the scenes and it’s actually quite fun and much more mentally stimulating than a video or picture. Could also Try doing it infront of your mirror. This also can help you be more confident in yourself.

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