mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 18h

OCD changing themes

Anyone else deal with their OCD shifting themes? The baseline fear is still the same about trusting myself after dealing with harmOCD thoughts but now that those thoughts don’t bother me as much, it’s shifted to “well what if I do something subconsciously and don’t remember” or “what if I’m turning schizophrenic or having multiple personalities”. Now I’m checking the food I cook and making sure my loved ones around me are still breathing and stuff. Also memory checking myself & paying attention to my reading comprehension. When does it stop lol 😭 I was literally “normal” 2 months ago and have been dealing with this ever since. I really just want to get back to feeling like myself. DPDR and foggy brain doesn’t help. I overcome one theme or subtype and then here comes the false memories attached to previous harmOCD thoughts, luring me back into my head.

Roryrororo

Date posted: 18h

Yup! But I have ROCD... one week I thought I was flirting with everyone I spoke to, the next week I feel like I have a crush on everyone I meet, then the next week I may just question my relationship. It's a mess. Sometimes it even shifts day by day, it feels like once I can accept uncertainty and get over one theme, my ocd just finds another thing to latch onto.

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 17h

@Roryrororo Yep. I feel the exact same way. It has me questioning reality and stuff at this point lol I hate it so much.

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 17h

@Roryrororo Same here I keep questioning myself do I love that person or not sometimes I feel like I love him and Times not I also feel like maybe it’s just ocd maybe those feelings arent right maybe Its wrong to have those feelings I literally like 2 persons I feel awful

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 17h

Yes it shifts I literally expérienced all the types of ocd

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 17h

@Madhiyabe25 Someone once said this is how you know you’re recovering bc basically the OCD is desperate so thats why it shifts gears.

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 17h

@mynameisRiver7 But it never ends

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 17h

@Madhiyabe25 How long have you been dealing with the cycles?

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 17h

@mynameisRiver7 Three years

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 17h

@mynameisRiver7 I mean ive been strugling for three years but it started shifting for 5 months

Dom4472

Date posted: 17h

@Madhiyabe25 Are you on medication?

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 17h

@Madhiyabe25 I understand. It hasn’t been that long for me. It’s all very new. It started out as health anxiety and panic attacks so I got on meds fairly quickly.

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 16h

@mynameisRiver7 Im happy for u I never get the courage to go to a therapist Ive been struglling alone i havent told anyone about my ocd I just keep pretending that Im fine

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 16h

@Anonymous To be honest no

Dom4472

Date posted: 16h

@Madhiyabe25 Gotcha! I would highly recommend medication if you’ve never tried it before! Once it kicks in and starts working it will give you your life back! Just gotta ride through the initial adjustment period for your body! It saved me the first time around with OCD.

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 16h

@Dom4472 I agree. I just don’t like not being able to have a drink occasionally lol but it brings me more peace of mind than I had when it first started. The thoughts are quieter, not gone but not nearly as debilitating as they were. I’ve only been on mine for a month tho.

Madhiyabe25

Date posted: 16h

@Anonymous Its hard for me Ive already tried to see a therapist but I failed but it just getting worst and I want to feel again I almost lost my feelings I want to feel joy again and I just need some time maybe ill do it one day

Dom4472

Date posted: 16h

@mynameisRiver7 I drink on my medication! I just have to be mindful that the medication can exaggerate the effects of alcohol!

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 16h

@Dom4472 Good to know! I feel like I ruminate more after drinking but probably still will from time to time.

Dom4472

Date posted: 16h

@Madhiyabe25 I felt the same way! I didn’t get better until probably 2-3 months after I started on medication. So either it was by coincidence or the medication actually did what it was supposed to! But it was night and day; I tell everyone that I felt “normal” again! I would commonly tell everyone when I was in the storm of OCD that I just don’t feel “normal.” I couldn’t explain it, but that’s how I would say it!

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 16h

@Dom4472 That sounds lovely! I definitely feel off in my OCD spirals. Like foggy with DPDR. Did you experience different themes too? And may I ask what medication you take?

Dom4472

Date posted: 11h

@mynameisRiver7 Yes! Feel that! And im on prozac 80mg

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 10h

@Dom4472 Ahhh okay. Sertraline 50mg for me! I’ve heard good things about Prozac.

Dom4472

Date posted: 10h

@mynameisRiver7 My sister is on that one! Shes had a good experience as well!

mynameisRiver7

Date posted: 10h

@Dom4472 Glad to hear it! I’ll be glad when it kicks in even more

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