feeling much better after talking and scheduling.

for the last past 5+ years been dealing with intrusive thoughts, contiment ocd and sexuality i some how got over those except the feeling of being a psychopath and it scares me it’s been 3+ years and this is my first time starting therapy i some how managed but it has gotten worst always thinking testing myself to thoughts seeking nonstop reassurance from reading reddit, talking to chatgpt 2-3 hours each day and the worst is i feel like im lying to myself, but i want to feel happy i feel like i lost myself i dont feel happy so i am stepping up and doing this i want my old self back.

j vv

Date posted: 2d

Getting started with therapy was one of the hardest steps in the process! Do your best to congratulate yourself, it is much more monumental than you might think 🎉 It is all about consistency—therapy is really tough starting out, but once you get momentum it can (and usually does) get much better. I consider myself lucky—OCD is very treatable and manageable…I could have any other condition but within a few months things dramatically improved, and have gotten even better over time. There is hope. Hold onto it! You’ve got this!!

kelysse44

Date posted: 10h

I have this same fear. I always was afraid that I’d go into psychosis and lose touch with reality. Then my brother actually did go into psychosis (because he smoked weed and was bipolar.. Very bad combination) and he passed away in a car accident. So now my brain keeps latching onto that fear 100x more than it already did. One thing that sometimes brings me comfort is thinking that true psychopaths, or people in psychosis, generally do not know or care about their condition. The fact that we are analyzing ourselves in fear of being psychotic, already shows that we are not. It’s just the OCD.

Sħrma

Date posted: 7h

@kelysse44 i’m so sorry for your lost kelyse i’m sorry if i spelt it wrong 🫶 and yes combination makes it worse espically doing weed that’s why i quit it’s been over 2 years but i had it here and there like back in february and i get so scared after i was never like this. and yes it latches on so harder i can go days feeling better if i start thinking or just nonstop like thinking i it gets worse and yes im so happy i found people who can relate with me. i felt so lost and scared.

Luna78

Date posted: 2d

I can emphasize so much. I spent my whole life dealing with this and I am just now beginning ERP for my OCD. A year ago I started therapy for the first time. Now I am adding in ERP. I used to think I was a psychopath as well. I always need reassurance and I constantly feel like I am making it all up or lying to myself. It is bad enough OCD makes us suffer, but it is equally as worse that it makes us doubt ourselves. It is hard but hopefully treatment will help. Best of luck!

Sħrma

Date posted: 2d

@Luna78 omg you and me are like twins i genuinely feel like i lie to myself like oh what if im just faking my tears lying about how i feel like do i feel my emotions or im i lying about that too , the thoughts make my chest sinks but. i feel like i have to smile it’s so scary and than i heard they don’t blink often either so i try to check if i blink or not than yawning i yawn if someone yawns near me but i feel like im faking it. and thank you so much i pray for the best for you we will get over this no matter who long it takes. 🫶🫶

Luna78

Date posted: 2d

@Sħrma It is too real. I feel so guilty for feeling how I feel because I feel like I am doing it for attention or just to get sympathy. That is absolutely not happening and what I am going through is real but I can’t help but feel as though I am faking it somehow. OCD has turned my own brain against myself. Now it is time to win our lives back. I wish you the best as well!

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