Hocd/So-ocd

sometimes after struggling with the theme for so long it almost feels normal/habituated so the anxiety isn’t or doesn’t come as quick until further snowball affect occurs which seems to be you now further-overthinking it rather than the thought itself being scary. it’s okay to acknowledge the thought but I don’t think it’s possible to discover your sexuality through fear, although at first glance you didn’t have the fear you got it to that point eventually. acknowledge the thought that you see it/hear it but don’t overthink it, it can’t hurt you it’s just a thought. I know how hard this is as I still struggle with the same theme and have definitely been in your shoes as of recently but this is what seems to be helping me for now and I hope it could help you too!

I have this exact feeling for liking women(I like men as well), but also about being a pedophile, a zoophile, a necrophile. I understand how you feel completely.

I'm in the same situation as you, also been struggling with it for 6 years and this year has been debilitating, I had several months where I didn't think I was gonna make it. I experience these feelings too sometimes, they don't start urgent but as soon as I aknowledge them I spiral. I try to not figure out anything and I find a little confort in thinking back to moments when I thought "this is not ocd" and now I can definetly tell that it was. I think that when we live with this worry for years and our brains are "trained" to search for signs they becomes a lot more receptive to triggers than we realize.