OCD being awful.

18+ only Thinking of giving someone benefit of the doubt about step sister thing and then saw a spider-man costume thing and it's from PS4 Spider-Man who's like mid 20's and they were talking about the film where he's again like early to mid 20's and I'm going to give them benefit of the doubt. Watching safe video and OCD's messing with me about weird joke images in comments of someone's instagram they're showing (One was a super zoomed in image of a persons face and the other was just some meme image of two people facing off or maybe kissing idk I couldn't tell) and had to lock my phone to itch and keep having to wipe my privates with the safe video playing and I did the compulsion to it (Obviously not to their instagram) but OCD's messing with me and being awful and making me scared I did a bad thing because they were wearing a Spider-Man costume in another video and did step sibling stuff in other videos and telling me bad things were on their monitor even though it was just instagram and some game website and had to skip to it not being visible because I now OCD would mess with me and was being awful despite the person being 22 but I thought it would be good to not let the rules control me anymore, obviously I didn't do anything immoral or wrong of course but OCD's making me think I should check their instagram again and I forgot to bookmark them as safe. Had to report animated video to be safe and was looking for video I did compulsion to to make sure there wasn't anything bad and paused B99 so I didn't get triggered and OCD's being awful and I can't find it and I finally did and it was a gaming website like I thought with nothing bad and the instagram was two people staring at each other and I feel like I have to do the compulsion again to something safe and before then, when I went to the homepage, I saw part of a thumbnail that didn't show anything but I reported because I recognised the character in the part of the thumbnail I saw and knew it to be bad and all the added anxiety and stress that I know I'm feeling but don't feel is messing with me and making me feel like I need to do the compulsion again. Watched the preview thingy of the woman wearing the spider-man costume to read the subtitles and make sure it didn't say anything bad and it didn't but OCD's twisting it. Think I can hear triggers in background of safe video and OCD's messing with me about their intro even though it's fine and just a face on a peach and some sound effect. They said something kind of homophobic and weird, calling someone gay for not wanting to have sex and I'm wondering if I should ignore it or not and I did. Did the compulsion to the person again and OCD's being awful and infantilising them and the noises they made despite them being 22 and I don't know what the noise at the beginning in their intro thing is and I'm sure it's fine but OCD's making me scared it's bad and I checked their instagram comments and they hearted a comment that said the n word so they're not safe and I'm scared I'm a bad person because they also said homophobic things that I ignored.