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Driving 🚗😓
😓 Okay, so here’s one of the biggest things I’m working on in ERP: driving. I’m 19. I have had my temps before, and I’ve let them expire because I keep putting off getting my license. And the frustrating part is… I WANT TO DRIVE. I really do. I want the independence and freedom that comes with it. My brain obviously has other plans. 😂 When I’m in a car, I’m always buckled in, sitting properly, etc. But I’m absolutely horrified of getting into a crash. It’s not just the fear of dying. My OCD gives me extremely graphic mental images of what could happen in a crash people being severely injured, bodies being badly hurt, things going through windshields, my own body being injured, etc. My brain goes straight to the absolute worst-case scenario. So naturally, I’ve been avoiding driving. Which as a college student who would love to leave the house… not so fun. 😒 I want to drive before my spring semester so I can take myself to class and stuff!😭I’m honestly terrified, but I also know I don’t want fear making this decision for me anymore!! If anyone else has dealt with a driving fear or a fear of catastrophic accidents through OCD, I’d really love to hear about your experience. ❤️