Scrupulosity OCD

I guess I’m just needing advice or maybe someone to talk with as how to handle this. I’m a Roman Catholic, but haven’t always lived the most “Catholic way.” Only recently I’m trying to be more Catholic i guess but all it leads me to do is doom scroll on TikTok or Reddit for HOURS, worrying anything i do, even listening to music i love is sinful and should be given up. Worried about what will happen to me when I’m gone. I worry my own personal beliefs I’ve always had are wrong and by continuing to believe in them i am going against what the Bible/my religion teaches. I’ve done a recent confession, ask advice from a Catholic friend, but I can’t stop worrying. I have started to lessen on things in life since trying to get more into faith, such as watching less sexual media, using vulgar language less, but I feel bad that I pray but then continue doubting and looking up what is wrong or right or if I am not in the mood to read the Bible even after being recommended to do so, I can’t go a day without a religious related thought and it makes me feel guilty to just want to hide from it but at the same time I cannot. If anyone else has gone through this, pls offer any advice.

pinodino

Date posted: Yesterday

I go through this off and on, if your worried about all those things it shows your on the right track vs the wrong one. Listening to bad music or watching less sexual media isn’t wrong either maybe God is calling you to change those things about your daily life. Start treating you and Gods relationship like a relationship talk with him daily ask questions ask him to help you with the thoughts that he didn’t give you and to give you discernment between the 2 I hope this helps!

Ariany

Date posted: 20h

@pinodino Thank you for the reply, do you have any advice on how to speak with him? I’ve been speaking to a friend who is more Catholic than me for advice, but her responses I’m not sure if I’m just not satisfied with or if she doesn’t understand where Im coming from. Having OCD and someone to say to stop feeling guilty especially with religion isn’t exactly helpful when I feel bad for listening to for example God is a Woman by Ariana grande. Love the song, I view it as woman empowerment & a catchy beat! But I know from online some see it as a sin or secular. I’ve only just started ruminating last month and it really has stopped me from enjoying things I usually do. Srry for the long rant!

pinodino

Date posted: 17h

@Ariany Im not any denomination just a Christian but id say ask for him to take away the thought that arent him, i also felt bad listening to that song and so many others and i think thats him making you feel convicted for a reason its not a bad thing it gives you the chance to grow as a Christian. We are told to be not like this world so this might be him giving you that push. Now if it’s something like if you dont pray for someone God will strike them down thats true OCD because God doesnt work that way. Just treat him like a friend talk to him through pray everyday whenever your stressing just talk to him like he’s there infront of you tell him your struggles if you can outloud. I find that helps me.

Ariany

Date posted: 16h

@pinodino Thank you for the advice! I still feel unsure and confused but I’ll try praying when I can :)

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