am i in the wrong

i’ve posted about this before but my mom genuinely farts so much and so loudly and she did it in my direction and i started crying so i went to my room and im so scared im contaminating everything with fecal matter and then she started banging her head on the wall and screaming and saying i cant take this anymore and then she tells me that everyone is scared of me and idk what to do and she kept saying why do i do this and she called me a bitch and then i shed cause i need to punish myself for making her bang her head on the wall but it made her more mad and im so scared the neighbors can hear and i told her i was going to cry on my own but then she started screaming and shaking the walls so i could hear and feel it from my room and i know im an awful person but at least i acknowledge it but she says none of the ten commandments require parents to respect their kids and she doesn’t realize that banging her head on the wall and then plugging her ears when i was asking her to stop was wrong. idk i feel like she knows that the farts make me uncomfortable and this is the first time shes farted on me and its so early and i dont want to decontaminate myself but i dont know why she is acting like this over me crying. like ik she says everyone is scared of me but im not the one who went home and took out their shitty day on others or whose mood affected the entire house and everyone could feel it (her and my dad) im not the one who she has to remind ppl to say “i love you” too because as far as i can tell, despite my obsessions ive never made my family scared that they will be molested (like my dad) .and like i know im different from my siblings because i have more illnesses but my sister is an alcoholic and 11 years older and theyve literally cut each other off before and my brother obviously isnt as affected by my dads comments as i am nor does he even talk enough to my mom to witness how easily she gets mad but he does hate when our parents argue but she says everyone is scared of me. but then she took it back and said no one has told her that cause i was saying like this is proof that i am what my thoughts say. this is really heavy but idk who is in the wrong like i know i fucked up but is it bad that i got anxious over gettign fart on me