Getting back on insta 😛

After over a year without posting and a couple months without using the app, I’m getting insta back primarily to reconnect w friends and make new connections! I really need to work on rebuilding my friendships and coming out of my shell. For over a year, I kept dealing with the anxiety of being secretly narcissistic, secretly being a demon, or potentially sabotaging my friendships. I constantly questioned my authenticity by scanning everything I said and did and eventually retreated. Little by little, I did manage to reach out a couple times this year, but kept falling back in reclusive cycles of inactivity. I’m freaking terrified rn but I’m glad I made a new account on there because I really want to erase this pattern. I’ve always been socially anxious to some degree but because of my ocd intensifying over the past 2 years it made it trickier for me to mask. Idk what’s bound to happen and idk how people will think of it yet but I’m proud of myself and for those who relate, remember that you are kind, loved, and appreciated!!! This has been so tricky to deal with but I’m glad I’m able to push through! 💖

A Foolish Sa...

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi nevy! I just wanted to stop by and say thank you for your comment on my comment from earlier! Also, I’m glad to hear that you have decided to start socializing with old friends and new people. Friends are very important relationships in our lives and it would be a shame to let Ocd deprive us of those kinds of meaningful connections. While it might be a little scary to leave our shells sometimes it’s just good for us to take the leap of faith and start making new friends, wherever that might lead 🙂

nevy ❀𖦹˚⟡˖ ࣪

Date posted: Yesterday

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior Tyyy and of course!!! Yeah I’m still kinda having a hard time getting out of my shell but im trying to take it a day at a time!! Taking a leap of faith is so important for us!!

A Foolish Sa...

Date posted: 15h

Of course! So, do you believe that your Ocd is proving to be a hinderance when it comes to making new friends or would you consider it to be something else? I personally used to be pretty introverted when I was younger, but as I aged I slowly became more confident and outgoing, although I’m still a little reserved 😅

nevy ❀𖦹˚⟡˖ ࣪

Date posted: 13h

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior Ok I definitely get that and I’m glad you got more confident!! For me I’m fine with making new friends, but it’s ocd that hinders me from maintaining friendships. Avoidance and overthinking is literally so annoying to deal with but yeah I’m I’m on my journey to be more outgoing to! Like I usually come off as reserved but once im comfortable i am very outgoing lol

A Foolish Sa...

Date posted: 11h

Understandable, when my Ocd was really bad I tended to overthink things quite a bit. I guess that is why Ocd is referred to as the “doubting condition” since it makes us doubt and overthink everything. Not to mention that it is hard enough to make new acquaintances without some kind of place where lots of people gather and socialize, like school, work, etc. 🙂

nevy ❀𖦹˚⟡˖ ࣪

Date posted: 11h

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior No exactly as soon as I have too much free time and time alone it’s hard to gain the strength to socialize back 🫩 but we got this twin!!! 😛😛

A Foolish Sa...

Date posted: 11h

Pretty much, after work I’m usually too tired to try and go out and do something different that might be fun. Usually I just do the routine daily stuff that I usually do after work, but when I plan something in advance with a friend then I’m usually excited enough to go out and hang out with them. But, as you say we got this 😁

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