Absolutely spiraling

I am freaking out right now. And I cant seek reassurance because of course, that would feed into my OCD. My friend is in the hospital right now and I was trying to make a video with our friends to say we miss and love her but now I am worried that she doesnt want me to do that. I am terrified that I did the wrong thing and now my whole friend group hates me and thinks im a heartless piece of shit. Im only in high-school so I cant do anything else. On top of that exams are coming up and I need to finish a ton of projects. I am so stressed out right now and haven't been sleeping so I got an ROCD flair up too. Any advice is appreciated. Thank you

Too Old For ...

Date posted: 8h

And my OCD is saying right now, "you shouldn't respond to these post. You're gonna make things worse for that person." Well, the only advice i can give is that OCD is a loud-mouth jerk and a liar. It goes after what you love, which is why it's going after your effort for your friend. That's a good thing to remember. Will this make it easier? No. OCD is also a spoiled brat that has loud temper tantrums. But that's why you're with NOCD and with all of us here: to break that cycle and quiet the noise. And it IS just noise!

NikkiHens

Date posted: 8h

You wanted to make her a video telling her you love and miss her? Aww. ❤️ Did you actually make it and send it to her? I know when I'm stressed, my OCD acts up so much more. You have a lot on your plate it sounds like. Be gentle with yourself.

#1sillygoose

Date posted: 8h

No not yet, I am not sure if I should now. I am so scared that everyone will be upset with me because I told some people that didnt know she was in the hospital. Like maybe she didn't want them to know? I feel so bad.

NikkiHens

Date posted: 8h

@#1sillygoose I'm having such a hard time responding without reassuring. 😭 OCD latches onto whatever feels important to you. I think perspective is really nice to have when these thoughts come up. Thinking from the other person's point of view. How would YOU feel if your friend group sent you a video that they love and miss you? Even though you didn't tell them and you found out your one friend told everyone. Your friend knew, thought about you, and set that up (that would make ME feel loved, personally).. You can't control how she interprets it, and that unknown is scary. If she's uncomfortable about it, just know that she can handle that feeling. And if she says she didn't want everyone to know, you can handle that feeling. And if you want to just text her and chat with her instead of sending a video... You can do that too. You have a lot on your plate right now.

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