meng
- Date posted
- 6y
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
Hey I’m sorry your going through this theme, I have it too, but I’ve gotten so much better! Remember that the content of the theme does not matter because underneath all themes is just fear! Exposures for me are being around my niece and when I see a picture of a kid on social media I don’t scroll by super fast trying to avoid it. I read online that good exposure is looking at images of kids on google, going to parks or walking by schools, and not looking away when you see a kid. If you have cousins or nieces/nephews, try being around them more and when you start feeling better, offer to babysit. It can seem hard because I felt really ashamed and didn’t want to do the exposures, but please do! It will help and you will get over this obsession!
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
Oh I forgot holding a child while it’s mom sat next to me Intentionally saying hi to children when I’m in public Not changing aisles or moving if children come close to me Making a list of words associated with POCD and writing them until boredom
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
I understand. This theme makes me feel so disgusted sometimes, but I know that it’s ultimately meaningless. It can be so hard at times, but stay strong! Ask God for the strength and try letting go of your fears by giving them to him. His main focus is you getting better, He’s sending you guardian angels to help guide you through recovery. One of the hardest parts is just letting go and letting him lead you
milliemillie
- Date posted
- 6y
I know that must of been hard for you to write but thank you for sharing! Currently, I too am afraid to watch TV, movies, etc. because they may contain my OCD trigger. Lets stay strong tougher!
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
The exposures I’ve done have been: Script writing Purposefully going to stores where there are children Intentionally passing closely by kids and looking them in the face
Philippians4:7Philippians4:7
- Date posted
- 6y
I always avoid my niece and nephew or any kid really ?
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
Don’t worry Philippians4:7, you are not alone. It can be hard and at first I avoided my niece too, but to get better you have to be around them. This will help to show your brain that the thoughts are meaningless
Philippians4:7Philippians4:7
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you. My ocd just really makes me feel like I'm hazardous. I despise feeling disgusted by my own self ? @0823
Philippians4:7Philippians4:7
- Date posted
- 6y
That's exactly what I've been doing. He's my only comfort and hope regarding all themes of ocd.
Philippians4:7Philippians4:7
- Date posted
- 6y
Thanks so much for the word ❤
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
You’re welcome ❤️ He’s my comfort too
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
Those are great exposures WorriedDriver! Thank you so much for sharing
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- Date posted
- 21w
therapy
it feels like therapy isn't working at all, like I've been super reluctant to participate or try and get better. I was doing really well at first but I've been in a slump with it lately, and the idea of doing exposures again makes me really scared. Like, I know if have to do them to get better but I'm so afraid that I'll pick something, watch it, and think the child character is attractive and start fantasizing about them. Like what if the only thing keeping me from doing that is because I've been avoiding them? Also is it normal for pocd to convince you that you prefer one gender more strongly than the other? Bc for some reason it feels more real with boys than it does girls (I'm mostly straight) and like.. idk I'm just not feeling good.
Anonymousssssss
- Date posted
- 20w
Can somebody plz fking help me
Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
emma345
- Date posted
- 15w
Pocd and accepting uncertainty
17f So basically I think you know this whole accept and sit with the uncertainty thing. It applies to pocd as well. Because you can ruminate, test yourself, seek reassurance as much as you want but it will never be enough for you brain to be sure you are not a P. So you need to sit with "Maybe I am a P maybe not" and just don't do anything about it. So sometimes I can do that. But here comes moral ocd. If I accept the chanse of me being a pedophile, isn't it morally wrong for me to be around children? Look at children? Watch movies with children in it? Cause now I can't even look at children even if it was an accident without freaking out and thinking that I'm a monster. Sometimes it feels morally wrong to leave the house because there is a chanse I can meet a child on the street I genuinely don't know what to do. It feels paralyzing at this point. Seems like I can't do anything. Like I even need to cover children on the screen with my hand when I watch a movie. It's exhausting.
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