- Username
- meng
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Hey I’m sorry your going through this theme, I have it too, but I’ve gotten so much better! Remember that the content of the theme does not matter because underneath all themes is just fear! Exposures for me are being around my niece and when I see a picture of a kid on social media I don’t scroll by super fast trying to avoid it. I read online that good exposure is looking at images of kids on google, going to parks or walking by schools, and not looking away when you see a kid. If you have cousins or nieces/nephews, try being around them more and when you start feeling better, offer to babysit. It can seem hard because I felt really ashamed and didn’t want to do the exposures, but please do! It will help and you will get over this obsession!
Oh I forgot holding a child while it’s mom sat next to me Intentionally saying hi to children when I’m in public Not changing aisles or moving if children come close to me Making a list of words associated with POCD and writing them until boredom
I understand. This theme makes me feel so disgusted sometimes, but I know that it’s ultimately meaningless. It can be so hard at times, but stay strong! Ask God for the strength and try letting go of your fears by giving them to him. His main focus is you getting better, He’s sending you guardian angels to help guide you through recovery. One of the hardest parts is just letting go and letting him lead you
I know that must of been hard for you to write but thank you for sharing! Currently, I too am afraid to watch TV, movies, etc. because they may contain my OCD trigger. Lets stay strong tougher!
The exposures I’ve done have been: Script writing Purposefully going to stores where there are children Intentionally passing closely by kids and looking them in the face
I always avoid my niece and nephew or any kid really ?
Don’t worry Philippians4:7, you are not alone. It can be hard and at first I avoided my niece too, but to get better you have to be around them. This will help to show your brain that the thoughts are meaningless
Thank you. My ocd just really makes me feel like I'm hazardous. I despise feeling disgusted by my own self ? @0823
That's exactly what I've been doing. He's my only comfort and hope regarding all themes of ocd.
Thanks so much for the word ❤
You’re welcome ❤️ He’s my comfort too
Those are great exposures WorriedDriver! Thank you so much for sharing
Hey so I’m an 18 year old college student I’ve had ocd for a long time but I never wanted to admit this aspect of it as part of it and I still don’t. That’s why I won’t say it cause I’ll just end up crying again. I don’t even want to post about it cause this would just make the problem real. I know I’m not sexually attracted to them but my mind wants to trick me and I end up getting confused on which is rlly me, like the other aspects of my ocd. It spiked ig when someone sent me a meme and it was fine but at the end of it it showed a child being shown in a sexual way which was suppose to I guess be funny but it wasn’t rlly funny to me at all and got uncomfortable and the pocd thoughts came in hard and I had such a bad panic attack and then I felt the need to go back and check to see what I was feeling and went to the video the next day after avoiding it to see which after reading the threads here is I guess a big no no? I know I’m not sexually attracted but my mind is playing these games and confuses me and I’m so scared to even talk to my therapist about it or ask people for help cause what if they think I’m a pedophile? Children genuinely make me happy and I have a motherly instinct to care for them but my mind turns it into something darker and I know I don’t think of these kids sexually but it’s like I have the power to?And that freaks me out so much and it won’t leave me alone I don’t know what to do I know I’m not one but my mind is tricking me and it’s freaking me out and if my mind says it could be what if other people think I am no one I trust will even understand idk what to do I just needed to put this somewhere to vent
Hey everyone! I struggle with POCD and struggle severely with feelings and attractions towards children. It freaks me out and I get so worried and anxious about it. I just keep thinking it’s not normal to get innapropriate attractions towards children. And it’s not just thinking a child is cute because that’s normal but it’s like I get actual attractions or feelings towards kids and it’s the same kind of attractions and feelings I get towards people my age and I’m 19. I’m so scared and worried and I don’t know what to do!! I’m freaking out
Every time I look at a child now I have these feelings and groinials and thoughts that I just can’t tell if they’re real or not bc it feels like it’s real it feels like I’m denying I’m attracted to them or something when I just notice that they are cute and have like attractive faces/feautures? And sometimes it feels like I notice them like an adult :/ but sometimes like if it’s like a vid or something sometimes I think it’s someone older but then I see longer and I’m like oof it’s not 🫠 like ughhh I just hate this idk what to do and I don’t want to be become an abuser I’m scared like I’ll be like my abuser and i don’t feel anxious like before bc I had these thoughts come up since 2020
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