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Sometimes they feel so real and other days you can say, “Oh I see what you’re trying to do there, it’s not gonna work this time!” Thank you for posting this, it’s nice to know I’m not alone.
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I battle everyday with intrusive ‘bad’ thoughts. I desperately want to share them with a trusted therapist but I just can’t bring myself to say the words because of the shame and the anxiety that if I say them then I’ve made them real. As long as they’re only in my mind I can do my compulsion and try to ‘un-think’ them. It’s hell. I’m tortured and feel so desperately alone. I can’t even write this without tears welling up.
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- 6y
Dawn, I feel the exact same way, you are not alone in this. Whenever I ruminate I can’t even repeat the thought I just call the thoughts, “that” or “it”. It’s horrifying to even think about saying the thoughts out loud because of how awful they can be. You will get through this, it does get better. You are not alone in this.
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I can relate, and I hate how sometimes the intrusive thoughts are super chill and you know they are not real and at other times it feel so real that you almost want to ‘admit’ to having them.
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Totally understand where you are both coming from. Every day is like fighting a loosing battle at times.
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I feel like I’m not as traumatised by my thoughts which is worrying and then I become traumatised that I’m not traumatised. It’s a never ending cycle! I honestly am convinced I want to act on my thoughts right now. How do you guys cope?
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- 6y
Meng, YES! It IS horrifying to even THINK about saying them out loud! I desperately want them gone and my therapist says they will lose some of their power as I talk about them but I just can’t! I am even taking anxiety medication. They were once so bad I would be paralyzed, literally. I couldn’t move from whatever position, posture or even facial expression I was in until I felt relief and sometimes that was a very long time. Then as soon as the relief came, another thought came and I was ‘stuck’ again. The medication has helped those severe times but I still have flare ups of those moments. Sometimes I just breakdown and cry. And many times I want to end it all myself.
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Meng I can totally relate to your comment ?
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- 23w
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 11w
I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
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