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- 6y ago
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Hey, I just joined and had suffered very badly from HOCD. Thankfully with treatment I have improved significantly. Even in the past I had refused to acknowledge that the fear of being gay was my point of OCD. Over the years I have made improvements and have achieved a significant improvement in my quality of life. I feel what would work is Cognitive Therapy in the form of comedy. In the past even the thought of it was something that would trigger me, but now it’s such a passive issue thankfully. And hopefully with enough time, the fear will subside. Find what makes you happy and channel yourself to those activities. For me it was weightlifting and films. Find yours. Hope this helps. https://youtu.be/s44uf4oqAMk
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- 6y ago
What are your symptoms?
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- 6y ago
I have HOCD. You know it is there when you think about being with the same sex and the thought makes you fee uncomfortable or that you are in danger. I feel the exact same way sometimes, the best way to deal with it is exposure so talk to a therapist about it! HOCD is actually very common.
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- 6y ago
It’s like, because a couple months ago I had some problems with my girlfriend and then I started to think about it too much and started thinking that maybe I couldn’t have done it that time with her because maybe I was gay. So this has increased the last months, I look at guys scared all the time thinking I’m going to be attracted to them, same with my friends. I feel a lot of anxiety when I think about being with a girl again, wich I have but this feeling still doesn’t go away. All this thoughts come into my mind wich I don’t like and feel really anxious. I wake up and go to bed thinking on the same thing
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- 6y ago
And it’s very weird, before I looked at a girl and didn’t even question myself, now it’s like I can’t look things from the same perspective. That experience with that girl really made my self steem low
- Date posted
- 6y ago
https://www.ocdonline.com/i-think-it-moved this article was really helpful to me, i hope it can help you too.
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- 6y ago
How did you end up feeling then?
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- 17w ago
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 14w ago
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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- 13w ago
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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