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First off, one of the major differences between intrusive thoughts about psychosis and actually being psychotic is that someone who is psychotic doesn’t think they are. I don’t think you’re going crazy. This really sounds like your OCD is currently in command of your thoughts. When you understand that, you can deal with the underlying issues a lot better. Nobody deserves to die. Did you break a law? If not, don’t turn yourself in. You can’t be penalized for having thoughts. It’s when you act on them that you could get in trouble.
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- 5y
I’ve been pretty close to the edge with my ocd before. I’ve definitely had moments where my obsessions felt close to delusions. God loves you. You were made in His image and likeness. He loves each and every one of us deeply and intimately and there is nothing that can separate us from that love. I have scrupulousity so I need to remind myself of that a lot too. If you ever feel like you need it, there’s no shame in using a crisis hotline. I know in the US I’ve used the text line 741741 but I’ve also called the national suicide hotline a few times. Not always even when I felt like I was about to kill my self but sometimes just cuz I was tired of being alone. They helped. I
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Breathe. Everything will be okay. My mom says everything happens for a reason so we can become wiser. You can beat this. You just have to be strong. I feel your pain and I just started medication yesterday
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- 5y
I’m so new to actually healing in this and so I don’t have the most insight but you are loved and valuable. I’ve 1000% felt this way in such despair. I’ve questioned Gods goodness so many times in this battle. But it can get better. God is good. I am praying for you!
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- 25w
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
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- 20w
I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy
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- 10w
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
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