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I had fear of psychosis really bad for a while. I’d say it was one of my first obsessions. These days, I would say I’m close to overcoming it. I still have triggers that will unravel my fearful thought process, but ultimately I’ve realized that there is no amount of researching, anxious thinking, preparing, checking for psychosis. If you’re going to have it, you will, there will be no amount of worrying that can prevent it. If it’s going to happen, it will. Hope this isn’t triggering but this is what helped my get over my psychosis fear. I’d really struggle with “delusional thoughts” that would pop into my head and I’d worry if it meant I was schizophrenic, but then I’d tell myself, if I am, I am. If I will be, then I will. I can’t control it.
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- 5y ago
I have strictly mental compulsions. Like taking tests online, researching all that stuff. It’s super frustrating because I know it doesn’t help.
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Ok, so those are the comoulsions to eliminate, along with asking for more opinions and arguing with yourself about it. One way to lean into the uncertainty is to respond to the "what ifs" with "yes, maybe' and "so what if..." And then something to the effect of "I'll wait and see" or "I'll cross that bridge if I get to it"
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- 4y ago
Quick update. This theme has dissipated to almost extinction. A couple things that really helped were just accepting that it could happen and if it does there’s no amount of worrying or thinking that can change it. My therapist was so brilliant in saying “if the train is coming you can’t stop it”. That kind of just made me let go. Still dealing with Harm Ocd but a great exposure was listening to videos and simulators of it!
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Was debating going away this weekend because of all these fears but I think I’m going to book my hotel today and travel with these irrational fears
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Yeah I guess the biggest thing is just accepting, and I know that but this is just a hard thing to do I guess. It’s more or less just super scary to think about and face that I’m having difficulty with. Stems from my Harm ocd probs
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Harm ocd and fear of psychosis really goes hand in hand for me, I’ve worried that if I lost control of my reality, I will hurt someone. I understand it’s hard. I really really do. I still struggle here and there
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@ruminating_redhead A couple months ago I couldn’t leave my house for fear I would snap and hurt someone out of nowhere. It gets better. I’m not over it but it does get better the more we just live our lives and bring ocd with us.
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@lulu23 I agree. And in my opinion, that is a form of exposure.
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- 5y ago
Do you have any erp tips? I feel like the more I read and watch it the more my mind tries to trick me into the symptoms. Ugh
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- 5y ago
Yup, me too, when the content I fear is right in front of me, it’s hard not to feed into my compulsions. What are your compulsions? It’s helpful to identity them first
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I’m going through the exact same thing right now. The OCD stories has a new podcast that covers this subject. I’ll warn you that it may be a bit triggering if you listen, but in it there’s a guy who has had this fear for a very long time but has improved after getting treatment. There are things I can tell you but it may be triggering so I’ll hold back. Best thing to do is try your best to do things you would do if you had none of these obsessions or any of the fear they bring.
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Also I was at a point where I feared I was hearing things and I’m almost over it. I also couldn’t be alone at all and I always am now. I was sure I would hallucinate at any moment for some reason. If I improved at all You can improve too.
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@lulu23 Thanks for the comment! Yeah I listended in on that one. Very similar and I agree. It just sucks when your head has the pressures and feels like mush almost lol
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I feel so upset right now. Can anyone relate? I keep having this delusional-type thoughts that my mom is out to hurt me. We live together and at night when I’m trying to sleep I get the thought that she is going to come in my bedroom and hurt me. My mom is so kind and loving, she’s my best friend. I know OCD attacks what we love, but I can’t let this go. I try to just reply with a “maybe, maybe not,” but then it comes back full force and says “you’re in denial, they’re brainwashing you to think that way, etc.” and it freaks me out and makes me feel so down. Like it says “your life is in danger, don’t dismiss this!” I keep thinking I’m in psychosis. Like if someone asks me if I truly believe these things, I want to automatically rely “I don’t know.” Because the doubt and realness of the thoughts/feelings deal soo real like I’m convinced of these things. I just feel so lost and confused. It makes me feel sick. I confess all of these things to my mom, which I know is just me seeking reassurance. I try to say to myself if I truly believed she was out to hurt me, I probably wouldn’t even be sharing this with her. But then again my mind always has a rebuttal to bring me back into rumination. I want this to be easier. I want my life back. I have been dealing with ocd for years now and this flare up has been the worst yet. Please, I know I’m seeking reassurance, but can anyone relate to any of this?
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- 20w ago
I'm so scared that by thinking about things I can make them happen. I know that's a central thing in OCD but I googled it and a lot of people actually say that if you think about stuff you can make it happen. I've been processing a lot of trauma and having intrusive thoughts about it and I'm so scared that if I think about people who hurt me it will make them contact me and it's making me feel really paranoid and scared and panic and I'm just so scared that I'm somehow conjuring bad people to come into my life and that I'm going to somehow get sucked back into my past or that I am somehow calling people close to me who could hurt me or that something bad is going to happen to me because my thoughts have been so scary and triggering. I'm also feeling really dissociated and I'm worried that these thoughts are actually me starting to have some sort of a psychotic break or something. Please help I'm so scared.
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