Tf0498
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ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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I had fear of psychosis really bad for a while. I’d say it was one of my first obsessions. These days, I would say I’m close to overcoming it. I still have triggers that will unravel my fearful thought process, but ultimately I’ve realized that there is no amount of researching, anxious thinking, preparing, checking for psychosis. If you’re going to have it, you will, there will be no amount of worrying that can prevent it. If it’s going to happen, it will. Hope this isn’t triggering but this is what helped my get over my psychosis fear. I’d really struggle with “delusional thoughts” that would pop into my head and I’d worry if it meant I was schizophrenic, but then I’d tell myself, if I am, I am. If I will be, then I will. I can’t control it.
Tf0498Tf0498
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I have strictly mental compulsions. Like taking tests online, researching all that stuff. It’s super frustrating because I know it doesn’t help.
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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Ok, so those are the comoulsions to eliminate, along with asking for more opinions and arguing with yourself about it. One way to lean into the uncertainty is to respond to the "what ifs" with "yes, maybe' and "so what if..." And then something to the effect of "I'll wait and see" or "I'll cross that bridge if I get to it"
Tf0498Tf0498
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Quick update. This theme has dissipated to almost extinction. A couple things that really helped were just accepting that it could happen and if it does there’s no amount of worrying or thinking that can change it. My therapist was so brilliant in saying “if the train is coming you can’t stop it”. That kind of just made me let go. Still dealing with Harm Ocd but a great exposure was listening to videos and simulators of it!
lulu23lulu23
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Was debating going away this weekend because of all these fears but I think I’m going to book my hotel today and travel with these irrational fears
Tf0498Tf0498
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Yeah I guess the biggest thing is just accepting, and I know that but this is just a hard thing to do I guess. It’s more or less just super scary to think about and face that I’m having difficulty with. Stems from my Harm ocd probs
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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Harm ocd and fear of psychosis really goes hand in hand for me, I’ve worried that if I lost control of my reality, I will hurt someone. I understand it’s hard. I really really do. I still struggle here and there
lulu23lulu23
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@ruminating_redhead A couple months ago I couldn’t leave my house for fear I would snap and hurt someone out of nowhere. It gets better. I’m not over it but it does get better the more we just live our lives and bring ocd with us.
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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@lulu23 I agree. And in my opinion, that is a form of exposure.
Tf0498Tf0498
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Do you have any erp tips? I feel like the more I read and watch it the more my mind tries to trick me into the symptoms. Ugh
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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Yup, me too, when the content I fear is right in front of me, it’s hard not to feed into my compulsions. What are your compulsions? It’s helpful to identity them first
lulu23lulu23
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I’m going through the exact same thing right now. The OCD stories has a new podcast that covers this subject. I’ll warn you that it may be a bit triggering if you listen, but in it there’s a guy who has had this fear for a very long time but has improved after getting treatment. There are things I can tell you but it may be triggering so I’ll hold back. Best thing to do is try your best to do things you would do if you had none of these obsessions or any of the fear they bring.
lulu23lulu23
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Also I was at a point where I feared I was hearing things and I’m almost over it. I also couldn’t be alone at all and I always am now. I was sure I would hallucinate at any moment for some reason. If I improved at all You can improve too.
Tf0498Tf0498
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@lulu23 Thanks for the comment! Yeah I listended in on that one. Very similar and I agree. It just sucks when your head has the pressures and feels like mush almost lol
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