Anonymous
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- 5y
Carl CornettCarl Cornett
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- 5y
You’re not alone in this struggle. There’s no need to feel shame or fear about it, you’re loved and worthy. I know your mind is sending other signals, and I’m sorry you’re struggling. If you’re in a crisis, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention hotline at 1-800-273-8255. Perhaps find a trusted friend or family member you can confide in. And always feel free to reach out here again if you need someone to talk to.
patatepatate
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- 5y
First thing that you have to know is=never be scared to talk about it , if you don’t feel good talk about it Second don’t be scared to call 911 if you need to they are there for you and don’t be shy they are there for that! Third thing to know is that there are a lot of people here to help you , I am
AnonymousAnonymous
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Hey, don't worry or get scared we are all here for you, if you ever need to talk you can speak to me. And I promise you that you'll get better if you give yourself enough time and care for yourself :). I had suicidal thoughts too but there's more to life. I know it's hard but you can push through and face your struggles :)
EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
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- 5y
Hey friend. You are not alone! Something that I'm wondering is are you feeling suicidal or are you scared that you might be feeling suicidal? When I was 15, I had suicidal ocd, where I would obsess over whether or not I was depressed and if I would ever actually do it. Unfortunately I didn't know about OCD then and I was getting the OCD thoughts really mixed up with my own thoughts (I had no clue what OCD was at the time). That being said, if you are feeling suicidal, you should definitely call a hotline or 911! Maybe take a look at the suicidal subtype of OCD though as well, in case you might be experiencing this. I know things seem like they will never be good again, but I promise you they can be. The first step is reaching out for help, and you have already taken that by posting to this forum. If there is someone you can confide in that can help you get the help you need now, I would also suggest not being alone. I truly hope you feel better, you deserve happiness ❤
lilly_lulilly_lu
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- 5y
That is something that’s happening to me too right now. I’m curious, how did you get better? Maybe I’ll find something that will help me
Ben84Ben84
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- 5y
@lilly_lu Are you seeing a therapist? Preferably an OCD specialist?
lilly_lulilly_lu
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- 5y
@Ben84 No, i dont have access right now to therapists..
Ben84Ben84
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- 5y
@lilly_lu You obviously don't have to answer this, but is it a financial issue (I can't afford an OCD therapist either)? Otherwise you can see someone through the app.
lilly_lulilly_lu
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- 5y
@Ben84 Im in a country where it’s kinda taboo and I am not financially independent either so I’d have to ask for money.. I was wondering if there are some things that helped you the most? I will be able to see a counselor in about 4 weeks
Ben84Ben84
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- 5y
@lilly_lu Can you repost this on the main feed? Ask if an OCD Advocate has some ideas. They might be able to help you better than I can ☺.
EmmaaaahhEmmaaaahh
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- 5y
@lilly_lu To be honest I'm not 100% better. I still get thoughts about suicide, but I can now recognize them as OCD, and recognize that at the base of it all I'm actually terrified of committing suicide, meaning it's definitely not something that i want to do. Honestly, I live on the 11th floor of an apartment building, so I kind of used that for an ERP exercise... i would stand on my balcony with my boyfriend, look over the edge, and imagine myself jumping off and dying... a huge thing for me was the guilt that came along with the thoughts, so I imagined the after effects on my family and friends as well... And then I just sat with the intense anxiety it caused. I know that sounds SUPER grim and it was really really difficult to imagine, but thinking the thought through all the way and realizing how scared the situation made me helped me overcome it. I did have to do it quite a few times before it worked completely. I guess it was an ERP exercise of sorts!
Ben84Ben84
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- 5y
Have you tried the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline? Their number is 1-800-273-8255. It might be a good first step to take if you feel uncomfortable talking with someone face to face. How do you feel about your school counselor or another trusted teacher? Could you send one an e-mail asking to talk?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Thank you so so much!! I appreciate you all <3
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