Heello

Date posted: 5y

CHRISTIAN PEOPLE/RELIGIOUS AND CONTAMINATION OCD HELP ME!!!!! I think I am losing my mind right now. I was not caring about coronavirus until today, now on Brazil things are gettings crazy as well and I dont know how to cope now. My mother as well started to talk its sign of the end of days and coming of Jesus. Thing is I am obsessing with this, I want to be saved, I want to go to heaven, I believe in Jesus as my own savior, but I am losing my mind. I am also doubting my salvation. Please someone tell me what I need to do to be saved, Ive regreted and repented for my sins, I want to feel happy again. I also super worried about this damm virus and about my family, I really dont know what to do ????

KickingOCD

Date posted: 5y

This sounds really frightening. I am a missionary and I have harm OCD. I believe the best thing for you to do at this time is to recognize that this is just OCD. It sounds like seeking reassurance is your compulsion for this. I encourage you to use ERP methods regularly if you don't have the OCD Workbook by Dr Hyman and Dr Pedrick I would reccomend it. Use imaginal exposure so your mind can habituate to these thoughts. You can do this!

Heello

Date posted: 5y

Thanks! I will search for these workbooks, and if mind me to ask, how could I use erp for this? I now how to fo it for pocd

KickingOCD

Date posted: 5y

It uses the same principles of habituation (getting your mind used to these OCD thoughts and stop getting anxious). They say ERP works best in baby steps and to make sure that you so it until the anxiety goes down. Teach your mind that these thoughts are just OCD and you don't have to get worked up over it. You can do it - train your brain!

pureolife

Date posted: 5y

The pandemic is a struggle for everyone, but it’s also a huge exposure for people with OCD. Be sure you’re looking at it as such: don’t let the worlds issues be an excuse to perform compulsions. Seeking repetitive reassurance or 100% certainty of salvation is a compulsion. If you pay attention to the news, there are a lot of practical things you can do to prevent getting sick or getting others sick: practice “social distancing,” wash your hands, sanitize doorknobs and light switches, don’t touch your face. Do the practical things they suggest, and don’t let yourself go down the rabbit hole of “what if’s” that tell you to do more. Stress often makes our OCD spike and it seems like that is happening for you right now. Be aware of that. Take time to relax and decompress. Don’t spend too much time researching (maybe limit your internet time.) get more sleep. And remember that this too shall pass.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

ok. Thanks really for replaying, I never thought about seeking certainty of salvantion as compulsion, I think it will be one of the hardest things I will do ( not seeking anymore ). I will try to relax and not panic anymore because of news and I really need to sleep, today Ive slept very bad, only 3-4 hours. This shall pass, yeah, I believe.

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

∆∆∆couldnt have said it better myself

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

I’m sorry you struggle with this. I doubt my salvation a lot too. Based on what you’ve said, I believe you’re saved. God wants you to be watchful for signs, but He doesn’t want you to worry. Please don’t hesitate to go to Him and tell Him all your fears. He is there for you.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

thanks for replying, the problem is that i was away from the church and even got cold in prayers and that worries me that i am not in communion with God. I want to be able to talk to him, ask him to take all these fears from me, to take care of me during that moment. I do not know if it is possible to do written prayer, but here I do my prayer for His help

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage Are you worried God won’t hear your prayers?

Heello

Date posted: 5y

@Catlady yes :(

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage I believe that He will hear you because I believe you’re saved and even if you don’t believe it, you’re seeking salvation.

Martha

Date posted: 5y

I'm dealing with the same time !!! I'm so stressed about this ??? I want to cry but I just sit and thinking of worst case . What if the world ends , what if God don't let into heaven , what if I burn in hell forever ??but remember we are dealing with a disease OCD and God knows we're trying our best ? it's scary , I had a huge breakdown about year ago I would call my cousin who is a pastor and ask him over and over " will I go to hell? I know what you're dealing with . Understand we're fight a horrible disease , keep your head up and fight on

Heello

Date posted: 5y

this is so horrible, I wanted to just cry too, I want it. I am so nervous, hyperawere and ocd still makes us doubt a thing so precious to us like this :(

KickingOCD

Date posted: 5y

You could try using imaginal exposure, I'm going to start using it too. You write out a 5 minute explicitly detailed narrative of your fears and then record it and listen to it until your anxiety goes down.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

Hmm thats nice, I'll try it. You think would work for this? This fear of not being saved

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage It did for me. My therapist had me build up to over-correction exposures like swearing during prayers to God, or saying grace to the devil. We started with tasks as small as writing the word "god" with a lower case g.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

@NOCD Advocate - Katie But this wont later make me obsess? I heard some songs of SuicideBoys and them have lyrics like what you said, things with devil. But I started thinking God would punish me for that

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage That is the point of exposure. We do exposures to intentionally trigger obsessions so that we have the opportunity to respond to the distress with more helpful behaviors

Walt

Date posted: 5y

I feel your pain. As a fellow Christian, we must understand that our salvation is never losable, if you believe Christ died for you, if you have faith on it, and you repent, you try to deal with your sinful self everyday, you try at least to change your mind (that's repentance) then your saved. The salvation, you can't loose it, because Christ's sacrifice is sufficient, we are saved made saints through Him instead of Made saints and then saved. I recommend pastor Rick Warren on YouTube, there's a playlist called "Rethinking your life" is really insightful on struggling with bad thinking and so son. Godspeed, my friend.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

I'll look for his channel. Here in Brazil people are mixed, some believe in salvation is not losable (wich is the one that makes my heart in peace) and others that think you need to stay on the path of God until the end or you will lose salvation, this mess me up

Walt

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage I am also from Brazil, good to meet a fellow from the same country. It's important to be aware that it is not that our works that saves us, it is Faith in Christ, the thing is, seeking Christ will make you want to change and you can rely on the Holy Spirit for that, we can't do it by ourselves, nor we are saved because we made good things, doesn't mean we can just live the way we want and stop trying winning against sin, we have to try the best we can, truly in our hearts, but it is, after all, faith in the Lord Jesus Christ that saves us. In Brazil I usually like Augustus Nicodemus. But I still recommend Rick Warren. That's it, I hope we can help each other.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

@Walt Nice to meet you! So I am not in sin if I believe that salvation isnt losable? I was watching Rick Warren, a very nice man, and now I'll look for Augustus Nicodemus as well. Lets help each other as we can for sure :)

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Newstage Newstage and Walt, I'm so glad you connected with each other. It's gotta feel great to see people from your own country here. I'm just popping my head in to say that it sounds like you both got sucked into a reassurance seeking/reassurance giving cycle. Can you think of some ways to break out of it together?

chrisis man

Date posted: 5y

I want to believe in god does that count? My ocd is crazy and some how I doubt god is real so much even tho my whole life I never would I knew he was real but all of a sudden nothing makes sense idk what to do

anonbeom

Date posted: 11w

End times pt 2

guys im so scared right now and i know my ocd is making it worse. i keep reading things online about the antichrist and whatever and im so so so scared. i keep reading things and i feel so scared like im choosing a wrong side or something. but i know i love God and Jesus. im so worried im wrong and i have no idea how to overcome this one :( sorry if this scares anyone or anything but any help would be very appreciated

Tulip1234

Date posted: 9w

OCD or something else

I have religious OCD and the thoughts have been becoming really bad. I’ve been hitting myself punching myself screaming quietly if that makes sense pulling my hair out talking to myself nonstop. I can’t even hang out with my family without doing these things or going to another room to do these things, these thoughts of overtaking my life I will always be Christian God is most important to me and I’m so scared because these thoughts are terrible. They’re disgusting they never ending. There’s always something going on in my mind. I don’t understand. I’m scared. I’m turning into a bad person. I don’t wanna dishonor the Lord God, I don’t know if this is just OCD or something else.

Anonymous

Date posted: 8w

My mind seems to be imploding in on itself

So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....

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