Hey guys, I don’t think I have compulsions, but I have bad toughts and fears about beeing a sociopath or a pedophile. Is this still harm ocd. I’m scared

ocd rewires your brain to validate the bad thoughts, which over time gives an emotional response to them, which is why when they're so irrational and fake, they feel real. So please be so patient with yourself. Dont strive for perfection with this. You will have harmful thoughts and that ok because its expected in ocd, they are not a result of your own will or desire ever, it made it a habit for u. Dont be mad at urself for having those obsessive thoughts. Being pateint with yourself will help u the most, not getting upset when the thoughts come.

I don’t recognize my self anymore. I was always a cheerfull person, empathic, there when someone needed help...but now i can’t do it anymore. I avoid beeing around people.

Thats common in the ocd world. Sometimes we have mental compulsions

I read articles about sociopaths and psychopats, i don’t identify with them, i’m very shy and anxious around people. For a moment it convinces me that it’s not true, but after that it starts again and i have to read harm ocd definitiom or symptoms to convince myself. It helps but only for a minute or two, then i have to do it again. It’s affects my work life and my functionimg in society. I get affraid when people talk about murderes or even words that i hear in sentences like blood or criminal etc. I was reacantly diagnosed after 4 hospitalization. These symptoms are normal in tue context of harm ocd?

Yeah, i only had 3 sessions with him. But even tho he told me that “what if questions” are the manifestation of ocd, it very hard for me to belive it, i struggeld with this since 2018 but i was afraid to tell my psychiatrist, I keept it to myself

I used to have thoughts similar to that too, you are not alone. Im here for you. Lots of people in this community know exactly what it's like and we are here for eachother. When you talk to me I can sense your true loving, beautiful, kind and gentle heart. Sometimes its easier for other people to see how incredibly stunningly beautiful and amazing you are than for you to think it yourself. I can feel your pain and youre suffering. But you deserve freedom. You deserve to continue seeing your therapist and psychologist to get better. To owe it to yourself. You have come so far, you are strong and I can feel it, no matter how weak you feel right now. Take time to think about how AMAZING of a person you are, I mean it you are amazing, there is only one you. Ocd gave you a lot of suffering and bad thought about yourself that you didnt deserve. I started making better progress with my ocd once i stopped getting mad at myself for having those scary, bad, awful thoughts. I instead was patient with myself and didnt expect this perfectionsim idea anymore. Dont let the fear of today steal tomorrowtomorrows joy. I hope this helps you. I teally enjoy talking to you, I can feel your kind heart.. i really can

Although Im not a psychologist of some sort, to me it sounds like harm ocd. Remember that those bad harmful thoughts are not true facts about yourself or a reflection of yourself, no matter how scary true they seem. Do u see a therapist?

Thank you it really means a lot?Im currently stuggling a bit with contamination ocd, but i used to have really severe religious/ terrible bad thoughts/ pure O ocd. I believe that anybody can get better, that means you too my friend. I still mess up, but that doesnt mean i let ocd win. Please remember what i told u about being patient or how beautifully made and amazing you are, remember this when u get down on yourself. I can see myself in you. But you also have to see this sstrength inside of you, because its there. Im here for you friend. I love you and I just want to be there and tell you that you set backs are set ups for a come back, you deserve freedom of living a life in which ocd doesnt have control over you. I love hearing from you and love to talk to you

Is there a private chat?

I just went to go see if there was a private chat option but sadly I didnt find one:( i would still definitely talk to you using this post though. When ever we want to talk we can comment on this thread/ post that we are talking to eachother on now. Because it will give us both a notification if one of us wrotes a comment. So ife we want to talk we can comment on this post maybe?

Do you have instagram maybe? ?

I do! But i have to find my password...

What is your insta?