- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes they do
Urge to do that bad thing, like my mind is like omg what if I just get up and hurt someone in my house? What if I can’t stop myself? And it’s like an intrusive thought but I get scared I’m going to get the URGE to do that bad thing & I get scared that if I get an urge I won’t be able to stop? I’m new to all of this so idk if that’s normal in ocd or if it means I’m inherently bad and it’s more than ocd
im feeling this too
I can’t post the link, but go on YouTube, write in the search bar ‘Chrissie Hodges urges, groinals and dreams’ it should be the first video that comes up. She has another vid called ‘ocd sexual and violent intrusive thoughts and urges’
All very helpful if you are experiencing ocd. Hopefully you can relate to those!
Also there’s a girl called ‘Ali Greymond’ on youtube who does daily updates on ocd often pure o, she saves life’s I think :)
Urge to do a compulsion or the urge to do something bad? If it’s the urge to do something bad, that’s normal. When we attach a lot of meaning to the thoughts our body’s react to it the same way.
The thought part is just in your head, urges are the bodily symptoms.
Yes it’s totally normal. The urges are like the complete bastard in ocd. They aren’t desire driven urges though, just anxiety driven,(even if they feel like they aren’t) btw. Don’t worry your normal. Watch Chrissie Hodges YouTube channel. She has a video about urges etc. I’ll post the link down below. Very helpful. Also I just want to mention I have this, sometimes when you get an urge you can become hyper aware of a particular part of your body making sure it doesn’t move so all those are normal. Ocd sucks. One thing that’s hit me recently though, is I realise that I feel with ocd a lot of us doubt our logic, like a part of us knows that we won’t do it but that ocd brain (amygdala, anxiety, irrational side of our brains) are overactive and the anxiety makes it feel so real. Intrusive thought ocd is a term used not just to describe the thoughts, but also you get intrusive feelings and urges in ocd etc, but they DO NOT mean anything. What is yours about btw? :) I get them about harm around my pets, and also I get sexual ones, like what if I do something sexually inappropriate. ??
Just for background, I had a nightmare like 3 months ago that I hurt someone and I don’t remember the dream much but it felt so vivid and real that when I woke up I checked my hands to make sure there was no blood on them. After that for about a week I kept thinking about it and what it meant and I was experiencing depersonalization. I was scared to go back to sleep because I was scared I was going to hurt everyone in my family while I was asleep. Finally when I couldn’t bare it and I told my mom because I thought I was going to turn into a serial killer lmfao. It sounds so dumb but I was so scared. I am so scared still. I get a lot of intrusive thoughts centered around that still and my biggest fears right now is like how do I KNOW this is just OCD and not me turning into a psychopath? I get scared that I’m going to get an urge to hurt my family or I’ll get the feeling that I’m going to run and grab something and hurt them. It’s terrifying, especially because I’ve never been an aggressive or angry person. I don’t like gruesome movies or anything like that & I just feel so BAD & I don’t understand what makes me different than a psychopath so I’m struggling a lot. I’m sorry for unloading I just kind of had to let it all out.
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
Earlier I had what felt like an urge but I’m not sure. I’ve had urges before but this felt different as the object was in front of me (not intentional btw) , I’ve been quite stressed lately and my OCD is latching on to that. I had an urge to harm and within that I had like 2/3 intrusive images that came to mind, I couldn’t rationalise with it, I felt “stuck” when I came out of it I felt scared immediately was trying to work out why I’d even think of doing that & was very upset. A while after I keep getting thoughts like “say your goodbyes it won’t be long until you act out” I cried to my boyfriend and told him everything. How do I know if this was intent vs intrusive urge?
I wanted to ask if it is possible to purposely think of an intrusive thought and then shifting your mind instantly to something else? Is it still an intrusive thought if you have been thinking of it 'purposely' for a second? I dont know how else to explain it, but it felt like I was purposely thinking of it. Anyone else had similar experience what happened during intimate moments like masturbation I feel so ashamed cuz the thoughts are so bad they're either about family members children and stuff like that it feels like I think it I just want to know if I'm not alone I feel like a monster because it feels like I thought these things or like I did think these things and I don't know what to do I feel so ashamed and grossed I need help I just want to know if anyone had a similar experience to shed light on because I don't know I feel so isolated
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