Anyone have ocd when decorating/choosing home decor ?

I avoid it like the plague because it feels too overwhelming

For several months, I only had a mattress in my old apartment because I was not able to decide what to buy because I was so afraid of making the wrong decision and being doomed after that. Before all this I had been living at a place that was fully furnished. When my boyfriend finally brought me a chair and a table I had to learn to live with being uncomfortable. After that I finally was able to buy curtains and a rug.

Not sure if it’s related but I frequently feel the need to spend money on stuff for my room a lot of the time impulsively. I have to breathe and step away some times so I’m not buying things I really don’t need because it causes a ton of stress

Everything has to flow and go together, otherwise it feels like chaos...

All the above comments are exactly how I feel. I will not buy anything unless it is exactly the perfect thing I’m looking for. And if I buy something I place it and move it several times. If I make an impulse buy, my anxiety shoots through the roof wondering if I could have gotten something better. If things don’t look exactly how I want it, or if it’s not exactly what I want, I feel like my life will be a disaster and I won’t ever feel comfortable. I’m currently painting my cabinets and it pains me to do it because there are so many bumps and flaws. It tripped high anxiety that I’ve been living with for a few days now