Hey I'm feeling pretty hopeless right now. Before I get to the main point I'm gonna give some background info: I'm going into my third year of University and it took years of constant denial to get treatment . I originally came in for my skin picking but after multiple appointments I was told I have OCD. I never thought I perfectly fit into having it because I was never organized nor am I a "germaphobe". I later learned everything made sens From being afraid to interact with little children (afraid I would assault them just from staring too long), all the way to staying up all night convinced someone would kill me if I didn't hide all the knives in the house. It took me just one month ago to sleep in my bed alone (after I stopped my rituals with my stuffed animals as a kid I was convinced they will harm me when I least expect it, and sleep beside my mother). It even explained why I had somatic rituals when I was a child (constantly balancing the right and left side of my body with repetitive touching until it felt right). Finally, after switching from cipralex (did not help) to Zoloft (currently on 150mg) I feel as thought my life is coming back. The reason I'm feeling distressed is that my main psychiatrist referred me to a CBT waitlist in a hospital. Well I just had a virtual meeting with him today... And he basically asked if I have cleaning rituals. I said no, I told him about my previous compulsions the first time I talked to him and told him the medication has SIGNIFICANTLY reduced my anxiety and compulsions that I only do two rituals a day (~3 hours). At the end of the appointment he told me that I DON'T HAVE OCD or anxiety and suggested I go off my meds. Now I'm doubting if I have OCD to begin with, even though I fully know I do as my main psychiatrist has been so caring and making sure I recover. It really sucks because I feel pretty invalidated?? Am I overreacting or in the wrong? I don't know how to feel right now. Any input would be appreciated. Thank you

1$trengtH

Date posted: 5y

stick with the meds, it seems u do have ocd. i just had a breakdown but doing better. it takes time

mlem

Date posted: 5y

I hope you're feeling better. Relapsing is completely normal but please reach out if you have someone close to you. Thanks for the comment as well. I'm here also if u need to talk

Courtney

Date posted: 5y

It takes a few tries to find the right treatment sometimes. Some doctors are more informed than others, some may not be a good fit. Also I know for me being absolute certain that I have OCD and not something “worse” is part of my OCD and I know that’s pretty common, so you may also be experiencing that right now on top of the external invalidation and I would imagine that could be quite triggering

mlem

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! I feel that doctors that aren't a good fit sometimes make you discourage treatment, but some are amazing. I relate to the feeling of doubt with the illness itself, it sucks :(

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

It’s awful to be invalidated by a mental health professional. Keep in mind they’re people too and get things wrong. Especially if they don’t specialize in OCD, they might not know as much about it as they should. This person sounds like a “thinks it’s about cleaning” person. This guy has one talk with you, he doesn’t know you. Your main psychiatrist knows you better and is who you should listen to.

1$trengtH

Date posted: 5y

viibryd look into it, been amazing for me :) I do hear good things about zoloft

gfmoreira

Date posted: 5y

Well, what you describe is fully related with OCD. I think you should search for a third medic opinion. P.s at 18 I remember sleeping with my parents in a situation resembling yours

mlem

Date posted: 5y

Yea! My main psychiatrist is specialized on ocd. Out of four doctors I've seen he's been the only that said I don't, oh well. Just weird bc he works in a hospital. Also thanks for letting me know, it's good to know someone shares the same experience. :)

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