Rob12
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- 5y
Mila19Mila19
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- 5y
I suffer from real event ocd as well. I suddenly remembered something I did when I was 13 or so (currently in my 30s!), and I can’t seem to let it go, or more accurately, my ocd can’t seem to let it go. Personally, I really feel you should tell your therapist everything, as long as they’re an ocd specialist. There’s almost nothing they haven’t heard. The exposure work starts with them, and in order to create scripts and exposure exercises, they would be better off knowing the content, even though content is ultimately irrelevant in ocd, and a good therapist will help you see that.
BelieveInYourselfBelieveInYou...
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- 5y
If your therapists asks any questions related to this or you find you should share this with your therapist, then you should definitely tell this. It can be ineffective here.
b2192b2192
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- 5y
Do you want to talk about it ? I have real ocd also
Rob12Rob12
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- 5y
Maybe you can relate to this. My ocd started because I suddenly remembered this real event that I’m not proud of. This also fed into intrusive sexual thoughts and thinking that the real event makes me a bad person and still says something about the person I am now despite the real event happening 7 years ago when I was a kid. I’m on medication and the thoughts have lessened significantly along with the anxiety. But I still feel a lot of shame about the event and can’t wrap my head around why I did it and how bad it really was/if I should still feel guilty. I want to do ERP but I don’t feel comfortable sharing what happened with a therapist. I’ve only ever told my mother and even that was extremely difficult :/
doublelifedoublelife
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- 5y
@Rob12 Similar boat to you. Except I don’t know if I did it or not. All of a sudden I remembered out of nowhere 6-7 years later, no memory of remembering/worrying about it before now. Leads me to think maybe it’s false (there are also weird dream like aspects that don’t make sense). Anyways, I’m worried about a therapist too, what if they think I’m a threat (even though I was a kid myself?)
c4444c4444
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- 4y
@Rob12 Hi please reply to my most recent post.
b2192b2192
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah I feel ashamed with what I did also, and i constantly ruminate about it . I've told my family and my partner which was extremely embarrassing but they all say to move on and it's not big deal but I still feel terrible. I think you should tell your therapist though because you aren't harming anybody now or posing a threat so they have nothing to report you for or anything if that's what your worried about.
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