Hi everyone, I’ve been struggling lately with something I never have before- doubting my Christian Faith. I’ve struggled with religious OCD for a while now so I guess it makes sense that this would eventually happen, but it’s still super difficult. I spent the past couple of days constantly google searching evidence for God, Jesus being God, why the Bible is true, etc., but every time I find something that makes me feel better, I keep looking and find someone who doesn’t believe in God arguing against the point that was made. I talked with my therapist today and I’m working on cutting down the compulsive googling, however I’m struggling with the thoughts still being stuck in my head that say I don’t actually believe in God and that it’s just something I’m telling myself. I’m mostly scared that if I don’t keep on reminding myself why I believe in God, I will eventually stop believing. If anyone is currently struggling with this or has overcome it and has any advice or stories of hope, I would greatly appreciate it.

So about 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one. Honestly never truly felt love for them until 2 years ago. It was the best couple months of my life!!! I felt so happy and loved and unstoppable! I thought this fire for God & Jesus will never burn out. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( But I knew I was and that they were real! I know I've heard them. Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts but then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I learned about OCD from what I've looked up but I've been dealing with this for about 2 years now. It's hard. I doubt if it’s OCD. Definitely feel like I'm trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?

I am a Christian but keep having unwanted really bad intrusive thoughts about Go liike I am talking strange weird thoughts that make me cry they are so uncomfortable. And then I have doubts from time to time if God is real and I look up evidence that God is real and am worried God's going to be upset that I tried to look up proof of his existence. even though I do believe that he is real. Any other Christians with severe OCD out there that go through this struggle? I just don't want God to hate me or be ashamed of me.

As a Christian there is many times where I struggle with my faith. These days have been quite difficult. I dealt with ocd for a couple of years. Just last year I officially overcame POCD. During this time I had supportive family that took everything I was going through seriously. But before I told them I only told God because I was ashamed of my thoughts and what I was going through. I prayed to God all the time for help. And there was many times where I opened my bible and read, tried to understand, cried and prayed. Though I might’ve not understood the Bible verse I felt comfortable being vulnerable with God in those moments. As I continued to pray I slowly gained the courage to tell my family what I was going through. And slowly I started to open up and gain the support I needed. Fast forward now I’ve been struggling heavily with having faith I often wondered if these things that I say was God was just me. I wondered if God was really guiding me through my family or if it was just them being kind because they felt like it. I struggle with believing that God has help me because I didn’t feel his presence like everyone says they do. Or I don’t hear his voice. Like how do ik what is God or just others free will… I also struggle with reading the Bible. I start for a week or two then stop because I don’t get it or because it’s confusing or hard to comprehend. I just feel like such a bad Christian because some people believe effortlessly whereas I barely have enough faith. I love God and want to follow him I just don’t know why I’m struggling so much right now… I could really use guidance or advice