Hi everyone, I’ve been struggling lately with something I never have before- doubting my Christian Faith. I’ve struggled with religious OCD for a while now so I guess it makes sense that this would eventually happen, but it’s still super difficult. I spent the past couple of days constantly google searching evidence for God, Jesus being God, why the Bible is true, etc., but every time I find something that makes me feel better, I keep looking and find someone who doesn’t believe in God arguing against the point that was made. I talked with my therapist today and I’m working on cutting down the compulsive googling, however I’m struggling with the thoughts still being stuck in my head that say I don’t actually believe in God and that it’s just something I’m telling myself. I’m mostly scared that if I don’t keep on reminding myself why I believe in God, I will eventually stop believing. If anyone is currently struggling with this or has overcome it and has any advice or stories of hope, I would greatly appreciate it.

Don’t have a great recovery story for you. I’m still fighting this thing daily. And even though your thoughts look different than mine, I understand them completely. What I can tell you is this: I do believe in God, and I believe that there’s always room for doubt in faith. It’s good to struggle with our faith, and God understands that struggle. When we start claiming things with certainty, it not longer impacts our life; you can set it on the shelf and be done with it. But no one has it all figured out, and like most experts on this site would agree, it’s good to make space for the doubt. And if it helps, know that there’s at least one person out here talking to Jesus for you and believing for you; rest in grace for a while =)

This troubled me from about age 13-21. I highly recommend googling Gary Habermas’s work on different kinds of doubt. A friend who knew about my struggles loaned me a recording of his lecture (I’m old—we had CDs back then lol). He talks about three different kinds of doubt: volitional, factual, and emotional. He responds to email, too. He’s gotten so many emails from listeners and readers that he has pastors who volunteer to guide people through their doubts and help them figure out which of the three their dealing with. Hope this helps.

I can relate to this so much its scary . I feel like I wrote this myself. I keep looking for proof , praying & asking for God to show himself to me so my faith will increase. Only difference is I start convincing myself I'm going to hell for doubting. Or that i only believe because I want to comfort my fear of death. Ugh. I have to keep reminding myself of all he's done for me. Its a struggle .

It's not my place to tell anyone else anything. But I let go of my faith in deified figures. My faith is simply in source.