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Don’t have a great recovery story for you. I’m still fighting this thing daily. And even though your thoughts look different than mine, I understand them completely. What I can tell you is this: I do believe in God, and I believe that there’s always room for doubt in faith. It’s good to struggle with our faith, and God understands that struggle. When we start claiming things with certainty, it not longer impacts our life; you can set it on the shelf and be done with it. But no one has it all figured out, and like most experts on this site would agree, it’s good to make space for the doubt. And if it helps, know that there’s at least one person out here talking to Jesus for you and believing for you; rest in grace for a while =)
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Thanks so much- just having someone say that they understand what I’m going through is a comfort. I’ll keep what you said in mind. Thanks for talking to Jesus for me, I’ll do the same for you :)
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This troubled me from about age 13-21. I highly recommend googling Gary Habermas’s work on different kinds of doubt. A friend who knew about my struggles loaned me a recording of his lecture (I’m old—we had CDs back then lol). He talks about three different kinds of doubt: volitional, factual, and emotional. He responds to email, too. He’s gotten so many emails from listeners and readers that he has pastors who volunteer to guide people through their doubts and help them figure out which of the three their dealing with. Hope this helps.
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Google “The Thomas Factor” by Gary Habermas. It’s a free PDF of his book. You can also find his lectures on “Emotional Doubt” on YouTube.
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Awesome, thank you! I’ll definitely check out that recourse. I’m happy to hear that you overcame this struggle!
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I can relate to this so much its scary . I feel like I wrote this myself. I keep looking for proof , praying & asking for God to show himself to me so my faith will increase. Only difference is I start convincing myself I'm going to hell for doubting. Or that i only believe because I want to comfort my fear of death. Ugh. I have to keep reminding myself of all he's done for me. Its a struggle .
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I’ve definitely had those other thoughts you mention, too. I’m just trying to sit with the thoughts and hold on to the belief that God will never leave me nor forsake me, but it’s definitely is hard to trust that.
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It's not my place to tell anyone else anything. But I let go of my faith in deified figures. My faith is simply in source.
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I am a Christian but keep having unwanted really bad intrusive thoughts about Go liike I am talking strange weird thoughts that make me cry they are so uncomfortable. And then I have doubts from time to time if God is real and I look up evidence that God is real and am worried God's going to be upset that I tried to look up proof of his existence. even though I do believe that he is real. Any other Christians with severe OCD out there that go through this struggle? I just don't want God to hate me or be ashamed of me.
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