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I constantly feel doubt but that's because of your OCD. It's normal to feel doubt especially when you have thoughts trying to manipulate you. You just need to remember that the strongest people get hit with the most crap because at the end of the day they will be the ones who will make it through.
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Thank you for your help!
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I’m glad you decided to reach out and seek therapy! My advice would be to treat this doubt about wanting to recover like an ocd thought. Aknowledge it’s there, but do therapy anyway. I would also bring it up with your therapist and see what they say. The more open you are with them the better. Side note, I’d bring up the suicidal ideation with your therapist, too. Sending love, I know OCD can be so hard, but you can get through this!
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- 5y
I’m sorry you ever reached such a low point. I’m so proud of you for persevering!! I hope you’re proud of yourself too. I think this doubt is simply like any other OCD thought. You’re questioning things in attempt to seek certainty about whatever it is (in this case, if you truly want help or not). So if I were you, I’d try to leave it at that, and avoid the compulsions that come with it. Move forward with your values! And just remember, you deserve help ?
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- 5y
Ocd thoughts can sometimes come with strong sensations or feelings. Continue treating it like an ocd thought and avoid doing compulsions based off it. I think you know that therapy and recovery are the best option. Don’t let your ocd get in the way of getting help. You’ve got this! Have you found a therapist already?
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- 5y
You know I don’t think this is uncommon. Actually, I have this all the time
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- 5y
Hey, thank you so much for all your kind help and support. I really, really appreciate it. The thing that troubles me the most is that the thought/doubt comes with a very strong sensation/feeling, which is really hard to ignore. The feeling is overwhelming, and the thought that I don't want to recover/am in denial becomes absolutely true. It's very confusing and tiring because at the end of the day I don't know who I am anymore. Thank you again for all your help. It feels so nice to be supported with so much kindness and respect. I hope you are doing okay.
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Thank you for your reply. Yes, and I have found a therapist; I have had 3 sessions with her already. But we focused on other stuff, including assessments, and I didn't have enough time to let her know about this issue. I will, however, try and bring it up next time. But by the way it feels, I'm really scared this is not OCD. I'm really, really sorry but I'm feeling very suicidal at the moment. And I don't know what to do. I hate myself and I want to end this... I'm sorry...
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- 5y
You can get through this. You know lots of therapy offices have on call psychologists for if your feeling suicidal you can try calling the office and seeing if they do. Otherwise google is a good option to find hotlines. It might take a little explaining ocd.
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- 5y
@Nikki1809 Hey I wanted to see how you are now.
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- 5y
@Nikki1809 Hey, I'm sorry but I did something not very nice to myself last night, but I'm fine, I'm physically fine this morning. The only problem is my mind now. Thank you so much for caring and being so nice to me!
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@corablue Of course. ❤️ When do you see your therapist next? Have you brought up the suicidal ideation with her? If not you probably should.
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@Nikki1809 I'm meeting her next Wednesday. She does know about the suicidal ideation, I brought it up in the first session as part of the assessment, but haven't done it again since then. I will try and let her know that this issue is getting worse and worse next time I see her. Thank you again for all your support!❤
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@corablue Of course! Glad to help! ❤️?
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- 19w
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- 19w
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- 16w
I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.
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