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- outdoorman
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I’m a teenager in high school with a part time job. I have depression along with ocd but I’ve been feeling good lately
Good for you for having a part time job and going to school while battling depression and OCD! That’s a success story!
@outdoorman Thank you!
I’ve had OCD for about 18 years now, always maintained a full time job and been able to support myself and get by. Recently made the difficult decision to reach out and try medication. I’ve always been told “well, your ocd can’t be that bad,” by doctors, family, etc. That’s been a huge reason for not seeking more medical help, the shame of admitting that actually I’m pretty damn miserable and have been in a constant state of distress and anxiety to varying degrees for my whole life. I think it’s easy to get wrapped up in thinking your ocd “isn’t that bad” because you’re able to maintain some normalcy in your day to day life, but I’m starting to realize I don’t want to just “get by” I wanna actually enjoy life and be free from this bullshit that is ocd.
I relate to you a lot. Especially when you said “it’s easy to get wrapped up in thinking your OCD isn’t that bad” I also am willing to do whatever it takes to just enjoy life and be free from the OCD, that’s why I’m hitting the ACT, ERP and eating healthy religiously. I was on medication for maybe 2 months? I saw a little improvement, but had more side effects then good. Maybe I didn’t give it enough time? But I’m not against medication at all. It wouldn’t bother me to try it again. What field of work are you in? Does it cause you a lot of stress? You don’t have to answer if you want to stay more private. I’m just getting ideas about what jobs aren’t as stressful. I run a business currently and it’s not as stressful as when I worked for someone else, which is surprising lol.
@outdoorman I really need to give the ERP route a more focused effort as well. That’s always been on me, I know it can help but it’s always been terrifying to take that leap. I’m hoping that a mix of meds, erp and the new doctor I have will be a step in the right direction. Honestly my work doesn’t cause me much stress at all, I also run a business with a few other people as well and I agree, the stress is less now than when I was working for people. Sometimes I obsess about that too, here I am with a job that doesn’t cause me stress and all I do is find ways to feel stressed and anxious. What a twisted cycle haha
Honestly hard, its hard on me where I work at a little retail store and I'm scared to get a bigger job
Are the customers rude or annoying? Does it trigger a lot of stress for you?
@outdoorman No no I just over think
I’m unemployed and recently graduated from graduate school with my masters. I’m looking for work (hopefully remote due to covid) but now just living at home with my parents and brother. When my OCD onset first started it was basically impossible for me to do any work. I had to even completely skip a paper because I was at such a elevated state of fear that I couldn’t focus on anything else. As time went by and started doing therapy, I noticed that once I was involved in my work I wouldn’t even think about my OCD and the thoughts would be at bay until I finished so I liked that! I also briefly worked retail (like a week or less) and while I was at work I was completely fine mentally, no intrusive thoughts or fear of them whatsoever, and as soon as I clocked out and walked out the building they would start showing up lol
Hello! I’m a self-employed residential cleaner. It’s rough, tbh. I worry about contaminating others, being dishonest, and imperfection, and confront those issues at work several times a day. I’ve had other jobs and have struggled similarly with those. It’s good to know much of the problem lies internally and not externally—at least gives me a direction to fight in ?
I’m a designer and have been for about 15 years. I’ve always had OCD, but I’ve also always maintained a job. Before doing ERP each day was just a matter of survival, I had little joy and happiness. My job is detail-oriented, so I’ve found if I can get my concentration into a project, working is usually helpful. Sometimes that’s impossible though.
That’s awesome! And a fitting name for your app ID. Also sounds like you put any residual OC tendencies to work for, rather than against you in that position. I’ve felt so lucky that throughout Covid and quarantines we’ve had our pup with us to keep us going outside (while respecting safe distances, etc.). If it weren’t for allergic reactions to bug bites I’d just stay outside all day and night. Thanks for sharing an inspiring story!
I almost got a job before Covid hit and closed the art gallery where I was going to teach, so now I’m just making masks and looking out for things to open up. OCD doesn’t usually hurt me when I have worked, but it was terrible for school.
I was lucky to not have OCD during my school years. I consider that a blessing. I can only imagine how hard that was for you during school. Probably hard to concentrate and take tests.
@outdoorman I also have ADD and other issues. Getting my bachelors degree took over 15 years, including the breaks. But I did it!
I feel that. Ocd hasn’t really been a major issue with work, but when I was in school it destroyed me, I think it had a lot to do with being younger and totally unaware of what I was going through, and it manifested in a lot of social anxiety on top of the compulsive behaviour
@outdoorman what about you? If you wanna share.
I own a lawn and landscaping business. I actually went to school for horticulture so I’m pretty good with designing different landscapes and hardscapes for clients. I use to work for a big transport company which I hated because of deadlines and crappy management. I’m a lot happier now! I love being outside and meeting new people!
@outdoorman That’s great! I like being outdoors. I thought about cutting back on housecleaning to work at a plant nursery.
Anyone else on here have obsessions surrounding work (doing your job perfectly, getting in trouble at work, losing your job, etc.)?
What is your OCD story? I’m curious to hear about what other people’s journeys with OCD have been like. When you were diagnosed/what kind of treatment you have tried/what kind of OCD or symptoms do you have/what has helped you most? For me personally I don’t have a lot of people that I feel comfortable sharing my journey with in real life so I like having the chance to let it out on another platform. I’d love to hear whatever you are willing to share. I’ll start by sharing my journey. I was first diagnosed with and treated for OCD when I was seven (12 years ago). It started when my parents noticing that I was constantly smelling and washing my hands. I also worried a lot about my family’s safety and had a lot of magical thinking: I couldn’t throw anything away, had special walking rituals, had to touch things certain ways, etc. When I got to high school my symptoms got worse. I was re-diagnosed with OCD, dermatillomania, social anxiety, generalized anxiety, panic disorder, and depression. My OCD had morphed into just right/perfection obsessions (took me hours to do a simple homework assignment and I spent hours per day reviewing my interactions to look for mistakes), contamination OCD (couldn’t go outside, in my car, downstairs in my home, etc.), magical thinking OCD (knocked on wood over 60 times per day), health OCD, fears of losing control and intrusive thoughts. My life was consumed by my disorders so I entered a partial hospitalization program for OCD for 12 weeks. Two years later I was still struggling to function. I felt like I had tried everything. intensive ERP, 13 different medications, 11 different mental health specialists so I decided to enter residential OCD treatment. I was there for 3 months. It helped a lot to have the intensive ERP and 24/7 staff support. I got also got a much better grasp on my issues. I still struggle but I know how to deal with my obsessions and compulsions. I doubt anyone made it this far but if you did thank you for your time. I’m definitely interested in reading other people’s stories no matter how short or long they are :). Have a great day.
We often talk about the negatives, but wanting to hear some positives: What does everyone here do for work/what do you study in school? Etc.
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