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- Naeun
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Hi Naeun, Sounds rough, know that there is a large community of people who are going through, have been through the same thing (me to). NOCD looks like a good service, I cant access it where I am in NZ, I can really recommend this book https://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Harm-OCD-Mindfulness-Unwanted-ebook/dp/B07B92CR9D
This book is GREAT for Harm OCD, I’ve read it myself & cannot explain how much it helped me. Love love love Jon Hershfield!
Have you thought of going back to therapy but with an OCD specialist?
Will I ever live a happy life without intrusive thoughts bothering me or what ?
I can’t stay w this again like last time I just can’t. Back in 2017 was my darkest fears and I can’t stop
It’s hard to go a therapist during corona esp and idk my mind keeps telling me that a therapist will throw me on meds for the easier route
Hello!! I think we are sort of in the same situation...isn’t it funny how we all think we’re the only ones in the world we who deals with this when in reality there’s an entire community of people experiencing the same thing! 3 years ago was a really bad OCD spell for me, it went away (also had a really bad therapist though), and 3 years later it came back! This time around I decided to see an OCD Specialist & it is one of the best decisions I’ve made. Sure I get anxious spells with my Harm OCD & other subtypes but they generally go away a looottttt faster. I feel like I can cope with it now- for life. You can live peacefully with OCD, so many people do, you are no different! I promise you that ocd treatment helps. Meds do too, but if that’s not your thing, ERP itself has shown to significantly improve people’s quality of life.
@catmom ... has reading this book got rid of ur harm ocd completely?
I think you’re misunderstanding the goal of OCD treatment/recovery. It’s not to get rid of the intrusive thoughts completely- that’s impossible bc even people without OCD get intrusive thoughts. Getting better is when you have an intrusive thought but the anxiety it causes it lessened by a tenfold, it doesn’t cause us to ruminate or stress over it or figure it out for hours or days. It sort of just exists in our heard without ruining our day. That’s the goal. And no, the book itself did not, but it has a lot of tips that helped me & it also helps you understand what you’re going through a lot more which is great! I recommend it greatly :)
The book helped me to better understand the condition and the tricks that ot plays, it has helped with my tool kit for dealing with OCD. My goal is shifting from getting rid of it to accepting it and giving it space in side me. Underneath all of the bullying its actually just a broken Amigdala trying to warn me of dangers that don't exist. It hasn't been easy but I'm making strong recovery. ERP story writing is now boring for me
Hey guys I’d love your opinion on some stuff! I’ve had my first instrusive thought about being depressed/suicidal on September 13th 2017. I got intrusive thoughts where I had depression and thought I was gonna end up killing myslef to a point where I really convinced myself I was depressed and would constantly look up depression symptoms. Then it somehow became into thoughts being bisexual cause I thought a girl was super super super pretty which was October 28th, 2017 but this spiraled into Harm/killer OCD thoughts after watching a violent scene in the movies and thought I enjoyed it and it’s been torture for me ever since. A year later here I am. Harm OCD has prolly been the hardest! At first I was so bad when I was scared to talk to people and felt guilty becoming friends with them Because they’re Talking to a serial killer. Some days are good. Some days are terrible. I can’t stay out too long and feel anxious going to places sometimes because it might spike my killer thoughts again. If I was able to survive a year without meds do you guys think I’ll be able to get rid of this killer thoughts without meds? I’m convinced where therapy won’t ever help me... and I gonna suffer like This forever. I have health insurance and I don’t know where to start and who to go to.
It’s amazing how powerful OCD is, I went through the worst Mental Health experience of my entire life last year. I thought my life was over, that I was insane, and was convinced 100% I had schizophrenia. My brain was mimicking every symptom. It was terrifying. After starting OCD therapy and ERP. My life changed forever. I was actually mental stable for once. I felt happy and controlled for once. Now Schiz OCD is back , and it seems worse then before. I can’t sleep, eat, work, or even socialize. I constantly feel insane. My two biggest themes are Harm OCD and Schiz OCD. And these themes work together to cause me constant anxiety. It’s hell. I can’t even think straight. I’m currently dealing with DP/DR, command thoughts/voice, internal voices/thoughts that I can make not sound like me or my inner monologue, “What if” delusional thoughts,hyperviligance,checking if I hear or see anything externally(auditory and visual hallucinations) and many more. I question my insight constantly. I even went to the hospital the other day to get evaluated and make sure I don’t have psychosis. Everything I fear the most seems to be coming true. Constantly asking my parents and therapist/professionals if I have schizophrenia. Constantly looking for reassurance. Feels as if I’m thinking my way into psychosis and schizophrenia. OCD knows exactly what you fear and will try to one up you on anything. OCD will CONVINCE you everything that’s happening to you is true , all your biggest fears. OCD is trying to find new things to keep you stuck and hold you in fear. This experience has been horrible and I am convinced I’m going insane. But I’ve been through this once and I’m going to get through this again. STAY STRONG. Reach out to professionals, Resist compulsions, step into the fear, and relax a little bit. You’re not alone.
Why can't I get better? I've been suffering with harm OCD for 3 years now and feel that it must be something other than obsessive compulsive disorder. I cannot think stop thinking about harm and everything triggers me. I'm a mom to two beautiful boys but I'm starting to do avoiding of triggering situations like changing and bath. I was doing so well for a couple months and now since I've started erp therapy two weeks ago things have just been so crazy in my mind. I meditate, I pray, I try so hard to build my home to be happy and healthy but I just feel sick and broken hearted.
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