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Great job, David! Even though you still performed a compulsion (washing your hands) in response to your obsessive thoughts, that is a great improvement over having to take a shower. You should be proud of your progress!
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That’s AMAZING David. Congrats on your success! You inspired me tongiht
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That’s awesome! I had a victory last night, cooking food at home in a skillet
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@JJjj the key is to start small. If you were to touch your tire without washing your hands after, that would probably send you into a full blown panic. Take small steps before taking a huge leap. For example, how when David touched the bird feeder, he still washed his hands after, but he did not shower. You need to start with small exposures and work yourself up to potentially touching the tire without washing your hands. Even when you start with the small exposures, you will still feel anxiety, but I promise you it will go away after you continue to expose yourself to your fear.
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David, the biggest accomplishment so far was to open my car from outside (outside handle). For years I am opening my cars with inner handle- first opening windows with remote and then manually with inner handle. Tire is out of scope for me right now.
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I posted a quote on here that I thought fit very well with OCD, “It always seems impossible until it’s done.” I know right now the exposures feel impossible, but once you actually do it, you will realize it wasn’t actually impossible and you will feel so much better for your accomplishment of facing your fears and no longer letting your OCD control you.
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Thanks David. I have to say that it seems really stupid and when my colleagues asked, I simply told them about my OCD.
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Funny thing was, that later they asked how I managed to do “remote” windows opening. It is hot these days here and sit into car after 8 hours parking outside is like sit into hot oven. Funny how this stupid phobias and OCD let us to find out some unusual and new rituals...that actually help other people to find comfort.
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Thank you, everyone, for your support. I love this group! Congrats, Sairwah, on your achievement!
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David, you fear contamination from animals ? I am asking because when I told somebody about fear getting contaminated - especially about rabies - people does not understand my fear.
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Hi JJjj! Yep, that was exactly the fear I had.
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Well, I am suffering exactly from this - each and every day I have to sit in my car and drive to work over animals that were hit on the roads. I am always afraid that piece of it could be stuck on my car and suffering from enormous fear that I could get contaminated. Hard to live with that specific phobia and OCD.
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I know this would be REALLY hard, but if you touched the tire when you got home and didn’t wash your hands, you would be taking a huge step in the road to recovery. The anxiety will go away for you, just like it did for me when I didn’t take a shower. Please let me know if you take on this challenge.
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Some days ago I have to fix defect on my daughter’s car. On the way to tyre service I ran over “animal doughnut” on the road. Being frustrated and full of fear I saw tyre repairman checking the tyre with his bare hands. Instant panic ! What if he would want to shake hands with me after repair was done ? Imagine me - PURE horror. I am glad he did not want to shake hands with me. So, as you can see, I am a beginner in fight, touching tires is not possible now.
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JJjj - I think it’s GREAT that you open the car with the outside handle; that’s amazing progress!!
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I want to beat OCD because I have seen and felt the benefits of clearing my brain from unnecessary, pointless, thoughts. OCD is like 0 calorie food. It’s pointless. No nutrition or benefits come from my obsessions or compulsions. I don’t care to have answers to everything anymore. I catch myself just trying to stress myself out so that I have some worry to feed on. But like I said, it’s a 0 calorie food. I get nothing from it but wasted time and energy. My brain feels more spacious when I’m not consumed by OCD. I’m present. My personality has room to be herself without making space for bullshit. I tell myself now that worry is poison. I think Willie Nelson was the person I got that quote from? Anyways, that imagery of worries being poison for the mind has been transformative for me. I’m evolving. 💖 Thanks NOCD community.
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December 14, 2024, marked two years since my first ERP therapy session with my NOCD therapist, Mixi. And October 2024 marked a year of being free from OCD. It was not an easy journey, confronting my fears face to face. Exposing myself to the images and thoughts my brain kept throwing at me, accepting that I might be the worst mother, that my daughter wouldn’t love me, and that I deserved to be considered a bad person. It was challenging having to say, “Yes, I am those things,” feeling the desire to run, but realizing the thoughts followed me. At the start of my therapy, I remember feeling like I couldn’t do this anymore. Life felt unbearable, and I felt so weak. I longed for a time before the OCD, before the flare-ups, before the anxiety, the daily panic attacks. I thought I’d never be myself again. But I now know that ERP saved my life. The first couple of sessions were tough. I wasn’t fully present. I lied to my therapist about what my actual thoughts were, fearing judgment. I pretended that the exposures were working, but when the sessions ended, I went back to not sleeping, constantly overwhelmed by fear and anxiety. But my therapist never judged me. She made me feel safe to be honest with her. She understood OCD and never faltered in supporting me, even when I admitted I had been lying and still continued my compulsions. My biggest milestone in therapy was being 100% transparent with my therapist. That was when real change began. At first, I started small—simply reading the words that terrified me: "bad mom," "hated," "unloved." Then, I worked on listening to those words while doing dishes—not completely stopping my rumination, but noticing it. Just 15 minutes, my therapist said. It wasn’t easy. At one point, I found myself thinking, “Will I ever feel like myself again?” But I kept pushing through. Slowly, I built tolerance and moved to face-to-face exposures—sitting alone with my daughter, leaning into the thought that my siblings might die, reading articles about my worst fears, and calling myself the things I feared. Each session was challenging, but with time, the thoughts started to lose their grip. By my eleventh session, I started to realize: OCD was here, and it wasn’t going away, but I could keep living my life despite it. I didn’t need to wait for it to be quiet or go away to move on. Slowly, it began to quiet down, and I started to feel like myself again. In fact, I am not my old self anymore—I’m a better version. OCD hasn’t completely disappeared, but it’s quieter now. Most of the time, it doesn’t speak, and when it does, I know how to handle it. The last session with my therapist was emotional. I cried because I was finishing therapy. I remember how, in the beginning, I cried because I thought it was just starting—because I was overwhelmed and terrified. But at the end, I cried because I was sad it was ending. It felt like I had come so far, and part of me wasn’t ready to say goodbye, even though I had already learned so much. It was a bittersweet moment, but I knew I was walking away stronger, equipped with the tools to handle OCD on my own. If I could change anything about my journey, it would be being open and honest from the beginning. It was the key to finding true healing. The transparency, the honesty—it opened the door to lasting change. I’m no longer that person who was stuck in constant panic. I’m someone who has fought and survived, and while OCD still appears from time to time, I know it doesn’t define me. I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments. Have you started therapy, is something holding you back? Is there something you want to know about ERP therapy? I'll be live in the app answering each and every one today from 6-7pm EST. Please drop them below!
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Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
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