Does anyone else constantly hate themselves and think that they don’t deserve help? Like I’m not depressed and I just wish I would shut up. I hate how I complain so much and I never seem to be right about anything. I’m never anyone’s favorite or the best at anything. I look weird and I act weird and, I saw someone write this earlier, I feel like I’m in the wrong movie. As if I’m not even the main character in my own life. Sometimes I just want to be alone and lie down and stare at something without feelings for a bit. Idek if this is OCD or if I just hate myself ??‍♀️

They are understanding and could also talk to your mom to help her understand you more ... I get it though I was paralyzed with fear for a year over it and sometimes you feel like you need more suffering and that’s a common thing with OCD because of guilt... for me I kept thinking that I didn’t have it because I wasn’t diagnosed yet and it scared me to get the diagnosis but also obsessions and compulsions were running my life(my dad started hating me and didn’t understand why I did all these things)... it also for some reason scared me to not get it because then I’d just be some type of freak... well I feel like a freak anyways... not only that but treatment can be scary and sometimes you just have to go when it feels right... hopefully you go eventually if that’s what you need to feel better

Yes you aren’t alone... and with the obsessive part of my mind I will become obsessed with the idea that I can just snap out of it and it’s almost like I’m in denial of how severe my OCD really is so it keeps me from getting help then I realize that other people have it worse so I’ll continue to act like I’m fine then my family members and friends constantly get mad at me when I act out with compulsions and it makes me wonder if they really even like me

yeah same! I really want therapy but I feel like if I do it’ll just waste money and my ocd isn’t so bad anyway but now I’m realizing it is bad. And get a really weird disgusting feeling when I tell my parents anything like that tho idk why so if I asked for therapy I would feel worse

Yeah and I always question my best friend if he really likes me or not and then he finally told me to get help... all my therapist told me to do was meditate but I’m hoping that they’ll be some more methods I’ll be introduced to later bc it slightly helped... hopefully you try to get help too... i know this is cliche but the stigma has been affecting me for years since I’m a teenager but it was worth trying to get help because a lot of things in life were going downhill

Thank you so much, I think one day I’ll be brave enough lol I hope you continue to get treatment and feel better

Oh and sometimes I’ll be okay like I deserve to live on this earth just as much as everyone else and then I’ll have a thought like “you don’t matter literally no one cares” and it’ll take over

I also question my friendships and since I move a lot I never fully trust anyone, and I think I might ask my mom if I can get therapy but it’s so scary for no reason