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I went through an extreme urge to change my life very quickly to be more holy. I sold all of my clothes that could be considered sexy, which was hundreds of dollars of clothing. I got rid of sexy makeup, almost even stopped wearing lip gloss since I had been wearing that since sixth grade. I stopped playing secular music and was not going to eat sugar or playbsecular music because it would poison me spiritually. I thought if I didn’t do all of theese things I would not live up to my potential and possibly be spiritually comprimised by demonic forces. I am very close with Jesus now and looking back in my extreme behavior it was all or nothing which my therapist said it was very much ocd. Jesus helps me pick clothing now based on what I feel comfortable in for my purpose, he shows me how to choose healthy lifestyle choices but without being under the demands of ocd, I am operating out of a place of love rather than fear.
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Wow God bless u
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Just someone with an outside perspective, it would appear that if you believe the world to be God’s creation, that means all of the things within it are part of his design or plan since omniscience is part of his nature. Also, it didn’t seem that Jesus withdrew from the world to avoid exposure to the less than morally upright parts of society. He intermingled with the outcasts and sinners alike. It would seem that, from a Christian perspective, you’d just follow his model. I don’t remember him saying an awful lot about leaving family behind or not listening to certain kinds of music.
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And thank y’all so much who’ve answered this far- it’s so reassuring I’m not the only one who’s gone through this and that I CAN have a stronger relationship with God and Jesus without checking all these boxes perfectly!! ❤️
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I’m glad you’re feeling better. The thoughts and worries about this will come back, and unfortunately it’s probably best if we don’t repeat what we’ve said here. So, hang onto truth, even when fear wants to take it away from you. It’s ok to make sacrifices for God. It’s not ok to make sacrifices for fear.
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Man, I so feel this. Finally, a close friend was brutally honest and told me “You don’t act like someone who is becoming more enlightened and at peace with herself and God. You look like someone who’s spiraling into mental illness.”
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???? love that note !!
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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