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I went through an extreme urge to change my life very quickly to be more holy. I sold all of my clothes that could be considered sexy, which was hundreds of dollars of clothing. I got rid of sexy makeup, almost even stopped wearing lip gloss since I had been wearing that since sixth grade. I stopped playing secular music and was not going to eat sugar or playbsecular music because it would poison me spiritually. I thought if I didn’t do all of theese things I would not live up to my potential and possibly be spiritually comprimised by demonic forces. I am very close with Jesus now and looking back in my extreme behavior it was all or nothing which my therapist said it was very much ocd. Jesus helps me pick clothing now based on what I feel comfortable in for my purpose, he shows me how to choose healthy lifestyle choices but without being under the demands of ocd, I am operating out of a place of love rather than fear.
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Wow God bless u
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Just someone with an outside perspective, it would appear that if you believe the world to be God’s creation, that means all of the things within it are part of his design or plan since omniscience is part of his nature. Also, it didn’t seem that Jesus withdrew from the world to avoid exposure to the less than morally upright parts of society. He intermingled with the outcasts and sinners alike. It would seem that, from a Christian perspective, you’d just follow his model. I don’t remember him saying an awful lot about leaving family behind or not listening to certain kinds of music.
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And thank y’all so much who’ve answered this far- it’s so reassuring I’m not the only one who’s gone through this and that I CAN have a stronger relationship with God and Jesus without checking all these boxes perfectly!! ❤️
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I’m glad you’re feeling better. The thoughts and worries about this will come back, and unfortunately it’s probably best if we don’t repeat what we’ve said here. So, hang onto truth, even when fear wants to take it away from you. It’s ok to make sacrifices for God. It’s not ok to make sacrifices for fear.
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Man, I so feel this. Finally, a close friend was brutally honest and told me “You don’t act like someone who is becoming more enlightened and at peace with herself and God. You look like someone who’s spiraling into mental illness.”
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???? love that note !!
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- 13w
I put a trigger warning because I will be discussing themes of end of times. I feel like I'm not following God's will. God knows ultimately that things were going to speed up end of times wise. A few months ago, I had a random thought to call someone I had affected with past sin and apologize to him although I did not know he was there, my sin affected him. I know he deserves an apology, but I chalked it up to ocd and treated it as such for months fast forward to now I feel like I'm completely against God. Horrifying. It's a complex situation I caused and therefore though I know he deserves an apology I'm really scared as I created a mess of things. I've been praying that God help certain things come to fruition so I could be exposed and help minister to others if that's what He's calling me to do but no answer. Instead horrible images and thoughts and feelings of doom. I see signs to apologize everywhere. I'm at my wits end. Because I tend to get ahead of myself I asked two family members and they said don't and then I see things that say Though people in your life mean well, don't go based on what they say only what God says. I tell God to do His will and I'll follow, do you think He'll listen. I even told Him I straight up don't want to do it, not because He doesn't deserve one, but because last time I apologized to someone else I didn't do it right and it was messy. I feel so evil, like a wolf in sheep's clothing. I also remember looking up morbid things for what???? Only to be disturbed pray about it and leave by why search it up again? I also fantasized alot about guys I've been single forever, late 20s now, I'm trying to go to church and my crush is there and I try to stop thinking about him because I know it's delusional but the thoughts don't leave. I'm so tired I want to stop but stop what? Living? I want to stick to God as close as possible. I'm going crazy.
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I have had a series of the same intrusive thoughts theme since I was almost 13... I want to obey & love God with all my heart, mind, and soul. I trust Him to work this out for my salvation. My thoughts: "Give your s*** away for xyz" - various themes - feel real (ocd) - as in 'temptations' - have disabled me, I am failing university, etc. - don't want to live with them anymore - don't want to leave the USA, afraid that God will send me back to my home country because of whatever reason - WANT TO BE FREE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN THE WHOLE WORLD My question: should I treat this as a mental problem or a spiritual one? I have diagnosed ocd and am in therapy (with compulsions under control).
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My religious OCD is having a field day with Christianity. I grew up Catholic, although we were the type of family who only really went to church on holidays. It was just a knowing of our belief in Jesus, and trying to live morally good lives. Knowing that Jesus died for our sins. Then my OCD latched onto the idea of “willful sinning”, knowing something is a sin but doing it anyway. I am not a saint. I swear, I engage in sexual activity, I tell white lies occasionally, drink alcohol occasionally…. Much less than the typical person. I know these things are sins according to the bible. I feel like I do decently well and am a decently good person. But my OCD has decided that because I don’t 100% align with the teachings of the bible, I must be going to Hell. The worst part is I don’t even entirely feel guilty, which makes me feel like I’m just truly evil and want these things. No amount of reassurance feels like enough, it feels like unless God told me directly himself that I’ll never be able to let this go. I’m getting frustrated with religion, and with myself. It feels like no answer is right. You would think the fear would drive me into being a perfect person, but its not, and what OCD deems as “perfect” feels impossible to attain. What am I supposed to do? How can you feel peace with God, while you’re also supposed to fear Him? I feel like I’m not good enough for Him, and never will be.
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