Not OCD related but anyone else associate sleep with being "bad"? Like when it comes to going to sleep I'm super anxious and I can't shut my brain off so now I just push off sleep as much as possible. Any tips on making bedtime not so miserable?

I feel the exact same way. For me, what really helps is turning on a TV show that I’ve seen before and find really comforting, something that will keep my attention just enough that I don’t think of anything else but not so much that I’m unable to fall asleep. Also, there’s a meditation technique called noting that’s really helpful if you want to look into that! I hope that helps.

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Some people struggle with mornings more, some with nights, but yes totally! Sleep can be a surprisingly stressful time for anxiety. I find that my most anxious time is first thing in the morning, and what I’ve found that helps is to simply accept and expect it! Having realistic expectations can make all the difference. When I wake up, I go “oh look my morning anxiety is here, right on time. Let’s breath deeply and then get up in a few minutes.” By making this my “normal”, I don’t actually dread it. Other tips might be to make a really calming sleep routine. Have some non caffeinated tea, read a book, stay away from screens (tv, phone, computer), light a scented candle, keep the lighting dim and pleasant, do a guided meditation specifically for sleep, etc. You can use these to change your associations with sleep over time. Whatever method you choose: stop procrastinating or avoiding going to bed. Each time you do that, you’re reinforcing for your brain that this is an unpleasant experience you must avoid because you can’t handle it. It will only increase your sense of dread and distress when it comes time to finally go to bed. Avoidance here not be a full blown compulsion, but it has the same effect.

I associate sleep with being lazy because as a teenager I was a night owl who would stay up and message my friends and then my mother would scream at me and physically drag me out of bed in the morning. As an adult it took me a long time to let myself sleep in on the weekends. I really just repeat the phrase to myself "just luxuriate in this time of rest". For some reason that really helps. The idea of luxuriating and treating it as a soap or self care

I struggle with this too! My bedtime routine is really stressful for me because I tend to do a lot of compulsions during that which is really stressful - not to mention being tired makes it even worse ?