Does anyone else have their OCD latch on to specific items. What I mean is there are times where I will have an intusive thought and it won't bug me at all, I can let it pass down the stream. However, other times an intusive thought will attach to a certain action and that intrusive thought from that specific time will play over and over. For me then the compulsion is trying to do that item while not thinking that thought it ruminating and trying logically to overcome it (I know OCD doesn't follow logic). However, other times that same thought it can pass through. As I'm typing this I think for me the aspect and the attachment to the event is a worry that I'll remember it due to remembering the event. There is an uncertainty that I'll have to live with that memory forever and it will forever alter my life and/or the relationship regarding who the intrusive thought was about (someone in my family, etc...). That similar theme plays out not just with intrusive thoughts, but with more of a moral scrupulousity. It's not that moral or unmoral act that's typically in question, but the idea that the memory will plague me for the rest of my life, so I can't move forward and enjoy life until things are "solved". I recognize the uncertainty in the above, but it's not like I feel it about every circumstance. OCD can be weird and I guess it's just it's sneaky way of keeping me coming back for more. It's just it's not typically all encompassing from the standpoint of multiple triggers per day, just that same item replaying. Of course once that one dissapates another one takes its place.

How old are your kids? And what sub type of ocd are you struggling with specifically? I am on day 3 of Zoloft. I have ameeting with a therapist through kaiser on September 10th and then my first appt with a NOCD therapist on September 22.

@Freemeofocd 3, 5, 7. The subtype is something I go back and forth on, lol. Throughout my life I've experienced most of the subtypes. When I was a kid it was contamination and checking. I don't experience that really anymore. Now it's a mix of moral scrupulousity, some perfectionism, and a bit of POCD/Harm OCD. I don't have the strong POCD thoughts that others have where I actually believe that I might be a pedofile. It's just if a thought pops into my head it's stickier than for a "normal person". However, as I mentioned it's not always that I had that thought, like the thought doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I might remember that I had the thought. I know that doesn't make 💯 sense, but again, it's not logical. Good for you in regards to therapy. I have an apt with a NOCD therapist on Sept 1st.

I have not been diognosed yet but I'm suffering from anxiety and horrible intrusive thoughts that cause me souch distress

Its all kinds of crazy thoughts they can be sexual or of hurting my Kid my boy . Most of my thoughts now are of hurting my love ones especially my kid idk why it's scary and it's an obssevive thought annoying causes me so much distress

Yes I hear ya. It's crazy how sticky those thoughts can be. Even though no complusion changes the thoughts. It's a bizzare mind we have.

I feel like I’m gonna be tied to a false memory I have forever. And it’s managed to attach itself onto my infant daughter. I start to panic when I think about how the rest of my life I’m gonna have to live with this fear and guilt and memory. Most people can just shrug things off and be like this is false, let it go. But my mind is stuck on it and is trying to convince me it is real. I imagine going through my whole life carrying this weight that no one knows about. And it drives me crazy. I feel so sad that I am allowing my mind to sabotage what should be the happiest time in my life...and taking away from precious moments spent with my daughter

@Freemeofocd I feel the same way you do my mind playing tricks on me and when I am at work it's when I feel the worst those dam intrusive thoughts just attack me 😞

@Freemeofocd I hear ya. I have items that attach to my kids as well. I feel like that is one of the worst things ever. It's all so odd because I can identify that my thoughts aren't logical, but that doesn't seem to matter because of the fear of OCD influencing my relationship with my kids. I hear OCD in my head say just give into the compulsion this time as you cant battle OCD when it involves your kids. At the same time if I can gain the tools I need through therapy then I feel like I should then be able to overcome anything. With that being said, I am still fearful. Hoping to gain the courage I need.

@kkny I feel the same way you do . It's a horrible feeling the sad part is just don't know how to deal with the issue

Alan, I hear ya. I have been working through Grayson's book and the reasons for overcoming OCD chart I filled out has my family as one of my top items. Thankfully I have an understanding wife, but at the same time I'd like her to not always be having to worry about my anxiety either. Also, I know there is a strong likelihood that one of my three kids will have OCD (just statistically saying). It would be awesome if I can recover enough to where I can teach them and prepare them for uncertainty in advance.

@kkny Same here my Wife truly understands me ... At first I was so scared to open up to her honestly but I overcame my fears and I had to let her know what I was feeling and she supported me and still supports me . And truly my anxiety is horrible especially when the horrible thoughts come in my anxiety grows

What subtypes do you struggle with?

@kkny Honestly I hope you get better and hope you can go back to being your normal self since I know you have not felt normal at least I know I haven't I'll pray for you tonight in my prayers

@Freemeofocd You are referring to as ?

@Alan.💪 Thanks Alan. I hear ya. The option is to get better or get worst. Temporary discomfort and victory or long term discomfort and more OCD.