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I've been where you're at. It can get better. If you see a therapist and feel you're misdiagnosed, you can always find another one. If you consider medication, it can potentially relieve some symptoms enough to help therapy along. There is hope. If you feel in crisis mode at anytime, please consider calling a suicide line. Your life is worth living and it can get better. If you're in the US and want that phone number, please let me know and I can give it to you
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I could’ve written this myself
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My brain comes up with a lot of stuff and I almost always react to it as if it were valid or real. It very confusing. Sometimes I feel almost entirely convinced that my obsessions are what I want, and then eventually I get out of it feeling very confused about what just happened to my mind. I honestly feel like I’m eventually going to become completely consumed by this mess in my mind and that I’ll never get out of it. I’m dealing with this every waking moment of my life, I’m scared the only way to get better is just to do whatever my mind tells me to. I can’t stop the constant analysis about EVERYTHING. I only want to think about this and figure it all out. I just can’t bring myself to think about anything else, my mind has just become so addicted to this mess and it’s my fault for not getting help the second the first thing started.
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Try not to blame yourself. Ive done that too, thinking oh if u just had gotten help a long time ago X,Y, and Z never would've happened. But what you can try to remember is now. Now is the only time you can start, you can't change the past so remembering that that regret isn't helpful is key. I've experienced everything you're describing and have slowly but surely been getting better, so there is hope
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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