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I've struggled to work, because the routine was very demanding on my very bad mental health at the time. And now I'm getting to the end of my degree, I fear it due to some OCD/PTSD avoidance issues. It feels like being in a workplace means more people to judge me and be disappointed or angry if my fears come/are true, and I have a vague but strong feeling that having success or being noticed will make particular fears more likely to happen. This is definitely linked to PTSD, however, but it's difficult to simultaneously work on this one and not get sucked into trying to reassure myself it won't happen. Probably the answer is to just take baby steps, and I know I do have to take the risks, as I would be miserable if I did nothing with my life. I'm hoping to get to the same place emotionally as WhatATripp, where I can put it in a box and work. I think this could happen if I enjoy the job and environment, as when socialising with others I don't get intrusive thoughts and only rarely slip into rumination for a bit. I think that would be good for me, as I could feel accomplished and less like I'm awful with nothing to offer.
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- 5y
My OCD used to be heavily triggered at work because I’m a registrar in an Emergency Room. Between the OCD and the ADHD, I really couldn’t self-direct any ERP and *needed* to go on medication to calm down. Now that I’ve got a good dosage and some better coping skills, I still clean more than anybody else (and clean more things than anybody else) but I’ve stopped layering responsibility on myself, so that I now consider my extra (not policy) cleaning is a kindness I perform for other people instead of a Moral Duty To Protect. I still get nervous at first when I forget, but I can let it go much quicker instead of obsessing for days/weeks/months.
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- 5y
I basically shove OCD into a corner and focus on work. I know it sounds odd, but it's like there's a 'no ocd' switch in my brain that only works for work. Personal life, no such switch exists. Yet. But when OCD dies intrude at work, I am learning to sit with the anxiety and refocus on whatever I'm working in.
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- 5y
I'm a freelancer, but when I get very heavily immersed into work my OCD switches off until I remember it after I'm done.
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- 5y
Work is actually my safe haven because I just pour myself into work when I am feeling anxious and can feel the intrusive thoughts creeping in
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- 5y
My OCD has interfered with my jobs in a way so I wasn't able to continue😢
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- 5y
It was hard at first but I usually just turn on music to keep calm
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- 25w
Hi! I’m new to the NOCD community, but I’ve been dealing with OCD since I was 12. I’m almost 29 now, and my biggest issue is health anxiety. It’s gotten to the point where getting work done is nearly impossible because i can’t stop spiraling. I’m lucky that i work remotely, but also makes it easier to be in my own head… Asking for advice - how do you all deal with the intense anxiety and are able to make it through a 9-5 work day? Any suggestions on how I can actually be productive? Thank you!
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- 24w
Often times I find myself spiraling out in the morning about all sorts of things. When I try and catch myself and figure out what I am obsessing over it’s like it goes away. I haven’t moved. I have been sitting frozen on the floor because I can’t go to work because I am behind on work and I hate being late and I hate being messy but I am frequently late and my room is cluttered and full of stuff. I want to be good and move and go to work but I don’t know what is coming today and I hate my job so I know I will get bored and when I have nothing to keep me busy and engaged I like start thinking and taking an inventory of what is going on and then I will feel a sensation and what is the sensation? How did it happen? And I know that I will pick up the bad emotions in the office and get contaminated, I was really worried about things like this as a kid too I cried because I had to touch dirt in kindergarten. I know I am this way and I have been this way for a while but at the same time I think I might just be normal and like I don’t know why I get stuck in thinking like this. Then I begin to doubt that OCD is real because everyone has a brain with wiring and everyone gets stuck in thought sometimes. I feel disabled from whatever this is because I am stuck. I literally cannot move because I don’t know what’s wrong and I know I have to go to work even though I feel like every moment I spend there is making everything worse because other people are so stressed and I get it from them. And I don’t feel ready because I just feel off and something is wrong and I just don’t know what to do because if it’s OCD or not OCD everything anyone knows about me is coming from me and I worry that I am often masking all the thinking I’m doing because thinking all the time is rude and inconsiderate and inconvenient for those around me, but I can’t stop. I just don’t feel right, right now - and I want to know WHY?? Why is everything off all the time? How do I even know that I am not making up the experience of OCD in my head to cover up something really wrong with me and now I am taking on the symptoms of OCD like an actress, because this could be something that I can latch onto as a final hope for explaining why I am stuck. So stuck so deeply and terribly stuck sitting on my floor next to my bed just scrolling to avoid thinking because any time I start thinking I am left with no answers or help or anything just this swirly feeling. I know I am trying, maybe not my best, but as much as I possibly can. I want to be a Special Education Teacher but I have so much so so so much doubt and uncertainty about every decision I make and everything I know that I can’t get there right now. I can’t do anything right now until it feels ok and then I will. It never feels ok. I know I have to be ok not feeling ok about it. I can be unsure and still be ok. I know it’s just my thinking and my body but I just can’t get past this feeling. And then I know that because I can calm myself and be ok even though I spent 2 hours of my life today already feeling stuck and spinning around and around and around in my head - I don’t feel sure about my OCD and I think it’s a bit of a scam made up by people to cultivate pathology around deep human thought because one day I might figure it out and we all think a lot.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 21w
Does anyone have OCD regarding always feeling like you are not good enough at your job? I'm 58 years old now I've had OCD since childhood. Every job I've been at I never felt as good as my colleagues. I am a nurse but I worked at that for 15 years I had a breakdown of sorts in 2017 and went on disability. I now work part time as a a swim instructor for kids. I always was afraid of killing someone when I was a nurse. Then I tried dog grooming but I was afraid I would do it wrong and hurt the dogs. At least now the stakes are lower. But my OCD is the same. I work with colleagues who are about 40 years younger than I am . I am afraid of teaching certain classes bc I feel like I wouldn't do as good a job as someone else. I know I can do it but it's like I have a fear of not giving them their money's worth. I've been at my current job for 2 years . I've gotten very positive comments from my managers but I can't seem to believe them. I feel a lot of shame bc I lost a lot of my life to OCD and I am at an age where people are starting to retire after long and successful careers and here I am working at an entry level job. I'm planning on trying to get out of my comfort zone and teaching some of the classes I'm afraid of .it's really hard. I'm always scared what if I lose my benefits and had to work again as a nurse how would I do it.
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